Almost 24...
I'm almost 24 year's old and I'm still unemployed... STILL recovering from my "illness"... STILL trying to find what I really want to do... For now all I've been doing is living the NEET life basically :/ and now that it's dawned on me that I'm running out of funds to basically keep living, I'm running out of options of what to do while i'm in this state of medical issues... going to see a Psychologist once a week... having to practice walking outside trying to get myself accustomed again to the outside world... (though it's not looking good since I can only walk a couple houses down before I start feeling anxious? and having to go back home)... If i'm walking with someone, i'd feel more fine but without anyone, i somehow don't feel as good... maybe it's because i was always walking side by side with my 'ex'... for like 5 years of my life ya know? and after that, it was okay (2016) until around december/january... guess what? that's around the time we broke up... so it's possible it took a mental toll on me and caused me to suffer vertigo for a year (2017). It's now 2018 and i am constantly praying I will get through this (with the help of my trustworthy friends) and somehow get at least a part time job that I would like... maybe something that uses my Japanese language skills or something...
I'm slowly studying my Japanese and Korean again after all these years... with the help of my childhood friend, whom i really appreciate him taking his time to chat with me almost daily... sometimes our convos take a 'giddy' feeling turn xD which I haven't felt in such a long time... couple of my close friends say that he might 'like' me but i dunno... part of me doesn't want to "cross" that line again... dating a friend... I don't want what happened to my ex to happen again :/ Other than that, the way he makes my heart race makes my day so much better. I can forget all the bad things that are happening. Maybe he's doing it on purpose... i dunno ;w; i'm not going to overthink things regarding relationships anymore. I told myself I'll just let it flow~... or I'll just stay single xD no strings attached, nothing...
I'm slowly studying my Japanese and Korean again after all these years... with the help of my childhood friend, whom i really appreciate him taking his time to chat with me almost daily... sometimes our convos take a 'giddy' feeling turn xD which I haven't felt in such a long time... couple of my close friends say that he might 'like' me but i dunno... part of me doesn't want to "cross" that line again... dating a friend... I don't want what happened to my ex to happen again :/ Other than that, the way he makes my heart race makes my day so much better. I can forget all the bad things that are happening. Maybe he's doing it on purpose... i dunno ;w; i'm not going to overthink things regarding relationships anymore. I told myself I'll just let it flow~... or I'll just stay single xD no strings attached, nothing...