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Tuesday, July 4, 2006 11:31 a.m.
Dear Diary, Happy Independence Day. I don’t have much to say about that. But .. independence is not something we should take for granted.
I turned on the a.c. last night. I’ve only used the a.c. once in June of this year, and now in July is the first time, too. Summer has a lot of temptations. It’s the time of year in New York City when everyone uses too much electricity. There are obviously some self-centered people in the world. I really don’t like those type of people. They only think of themselves first. I suppose people don’t have knowledge on just how much electricity we all went over in 2003 that caused the blackout. I don’t know the numbers either, too, but ...
I only set my a.c. for five hours so that it already turned off by itself at 6 a.m. I really don’t see the point in having the a.c. on for every hour that you’re sleeping until you’re awake. When I woke up with the a.c. already off, I opened my windows to let the air in. Then I went back to sleep.
I had such a terrifying dream. It wasn’t the greatest terror, but it sure caused me a lot of worry and anxiety. In the dream, my parrot went missing. The cage was closed and didn’t look like it was opened before, but the bird was simply not in there. I was so worried and it made me a little crazy that I started to deny that he was even gone. I kept going back and forth to the cage and hoping my parrot would be in there and that this is just a dream I’ll wake up from soon. I was too caught up in the dream to realize I was, in fact, dreaming, of course.
I think the dream stemmed from when Dad told me days ago that about a year before, the parrot went missing. It wasn’t until the superintendent over at the apartment home one house down to the left found him.
I had bread with peanut butter in the morning. Not toasted.
Mom asked if the internet thing for the Family tree maker is working. When she asked if she had found anyone yet, I said it’s hard. I really wanted to rant about the difficulty, but no matter how frustrating, I can’t just give up when I’ve already started. The best thing to do is ask people in my family. Then again, maybe I won’t ask my mother about it. I dreamt that when I directly asked her, she turned to me and said, “There are too many people in it that you will forget”. So she wouldn’t tell me. Sigh.
I contacted my cousin June in California through an email last night. I apologized for having such off and on contact with her. I haven’t spoken to her since last year in September. Seriously, what is wrong with me? I let a little fear get in my way. I was scared to really talk to her since I thought I might be a bad influence on her if I said the wrong things or something. But I’ve been hesitant to confide in her too. The truth is, I don’t want to be just a cousin to her. I don’t want to have a vague type of family relationship with her. I told her I have trouble forming close relationships with people. I can’t form that many close relationships with people outside of the family, but I feel like a laughing stock if I can’t even connect with my own relatives. I don’t want it to be like that.
Summer school is tomorrow. Oh goodness. I don’t know where to begin with this topic. I’ve been dreading it for days and days and days! My first period class is in G14; one of the gymnasiums. Only I don’t know which one is G14!! Oh crap. I hate being the one not knowing where the hell I am going to. It’s really nerve wrecking if you know what I mean.
Dear Diary, Happy Independence Day. I don’t have much to say about that. But .. independence is not something we should take for granted.
I turned on the a.c. last night. I’ve only used the a.c. once in June of this year, and now in July is the first time, too. Summer has a lot of temptations. It’s the time of year in New York City when everyone uses too much electricity. There are obviously some self-centered people in the world. I really don’t like those type of people. They only think of themselves first. I suppose people don’t have knowledge on just how much electricity we all went over in 2003 that caused the blackout. I don’t know the numbers either, too, but ...
I only set my a.c. for five hours so that it already turned off by itself at 6 a.m. I really don’t see the point in having the a.c. on for every hour that you’re sleeping until you’re awake. When I woke up with the a.c. already off, I opened my windows to let the air in. Then I went back to sleep.
I had such a terrifying dream. It wasn’t the greatest terror, but it sure caused me a lot of worry and anxiety. In the dream, my parrot went missing. The cage was closed and didn’t look like it was opened before, but the bird was simply not in there. I was so worried and it made me a little crazy that I started to deny that he was even gone. I kept going back and forth to the cage and hoping my parrot would be in there and that this is just a dream I’ll wake up from soon. I was too caught up in the dream to realize I was, in fact, dreaming, of course.
I think the dream stemmed from when Dad told me days ago that about a year before, the parrot went missing. It wasn’t until the superintendent over at the apartment home one house down to the left found him.
I had bread with peanut butter in the morning. Not toasted.
Mom asked if the internet thing for the Family tree maker is working. When she asked if she had found anyone yet, I said it’s hard. I really wanted to rant about the difficulty, but no matter how frustrating, I can’t just give up when I’ve already started. The best thing to do is ask people in my family. Then again, maybe I won’t ask my mother about it. I dreamt that when I directly asked her, she turned to me and said, “There are too many people in it that you will forget”. So she wouldn’t tell me. Sigh.
I contacted my cousin June in California through an email last night. I apologized for having such off and on contact with her. I haven’t spoken to her since last year in September. Seriously, what is wrong with me? I let a little fear get in my way. I was scared to really talk to her since I thought I might be a bad influence on her if I said the wrong things or something. But I’ve been hesitant to confide in her too. The truth is, I don’t want to be just a cousin to her. I don’t want to have a vague type of family relationship with her. I told her I have trouble forming close relationships with people. I can’t form that many close relationships with people outside of the family, but I feel like a laughing stock if I can’t even connect with my own relatives. I don’t want it to be like that.
Summer school is tomorrow. Oh goodness. I don’t know where to begin with this topic. I’ve been dreading it for days and days and days! My first period class is in G14; one of the gymnasiums. Only I don’t know which one is G14!! Oh crap. I hate being the one not knowing where the hell I am going to. It’s really nerve wrecking if you know what I mean.