The life you missed - Chapter 22
Chapter 22 - My wish
Nearly a month had passed since Ed had been able to go home from the hospital. He still felt a little ill but he didn’t care much about that. He was mostly at home taking care of Nina or he was with Riza who was at home because she had entered the last trimester of her pregnancy. Every time he saw the expectant mother his heart twitched. At first he didn’t know why but after his illness he knew that his wish to get a second child grew. He paced around the living room. He knew about the risks that a second pregnancy would bring. Dr. Knox had allowed him to read the files, to see what could have happened. He sighed and sat on the couch. His little girl was sound asleep upstairs and he couldn’t bring himself to take a nap as well. He didn’t know if it would be wise to talk with Roy over his wish. He was sure that the dark-haired man was against it. Roy hadn’t left his side in the hospital. Ed was happy that the older man loved him that much but he still felt as if something would be missing in his life. He wasn’t an only-child like Roy was; at least the young man thought his lover was an only-child. It was hard to get him to talk about his family. He just knew that Roy’s parents have died shortly before the war in Ishbal, but his lover had never mentioned any siblings. There hadn’t been any other Mustangs on their wedding. The blonde sighed closed his eyes and leaned against the backrest of the couch. He let his hand rest on his stomach where he knew the false uterus was. He still took pills to make sure he wouldn’t loose it or that it could be abandoned and he would bleed to death. He bit his bottom lip. The blonde hadn’t yet forgotten how it had felt to have a baby growing inside of him, to hear the heartbeat of the unborn child and to feel how it moved as it had grown enough. A sibling for Nina would be perfect and he knew he could make it. He was strong enough for that. He had survived several attacks of assassins, had had an Automail surgery, had a knife to his shoulder and managed a journey through the gate and could his father bring back with him. He sighed and opened his eyes again. He stood up and walked to the phone to call the one person he was sure he could persuade to help him. He heard it ring twice before somebody on the other side of the line answered the phone.
‘Hello?’
“Russel? I… I need your help with something.”
The blonde lay on their bed with a bucket next to him. Since the first injection almost a week ago he felt like shit. They had measured the right amount for Ed to get his uterus started again but that he wouldn’t get a menstruation as the fake-vagina had been closed again and the nature would find its own way to deliver the blood, most likely through his anus and he couldn’t have that. Roy wasn’t allowed to know yet. He was glad to have Russel with him there. The younger man could take care of Nina while Ed himself tried to recover from the nozzle. He couldn’t think of a time when the first time with the stuff had been that bad. Maybe that first time wasn’t that bad because he had gotten a lot more on his skin and the stuff made his way slowly into his system. With the shot it was different. The liquid was immediately in his circulation. He sighed and sat up on the bed. He couldn’t lie all day on their bed. Russel had to go back to the lab on one point or another and Roy would be home soon. He made his way down. As he rounded the last corner he was greeted with Roy’s glare. He hadn’t seen his lover this angry since they had been a couple. Russel was sitting on the couch, his head slumped forward. Guilt replaced the ill feeling in his stomach. He bit his bottom lip and looked down to his feet. He heard as Roy sighed and made his way over to him. The older man grabbed his arm and dragged him back upstairs to their bedroom. He closed the door behind them and guided Ed to the bed so that the younger lover could sit down.
“Care to explain why Russel is here and you’re lying up here?” The young man glanced up to see Roy’s dark sad eye. He swallowed but couldn’t bring himself to say anything. “Why didn’t you tell me that you had a relapse? I would have understood that you don’t want to go to the hospital again.” The dark-haired man sat next to him. Now Ed felt really guilty. It wasn’t the illness that had come back but his own fault that he was feeling ill. He worked his jaw but didn’t say anything. “Ed. Love, please look at me.” He felt the warm hand of his lover caressing his cheek and turned his head. Roy looked so sad. He couldn’t bring himself to keep quiet anymore. He leaned in the touch. His golden eyes searched his lover’s face. How could he phrase his wish? How could he tell his husband that he was risking his health to get another child? He swallowed hard before he spoke quietly.
“I…It’s not the illness.” He swallowed again. “I want another one.” He looked down unsure of what he would do if Roy would reject this. The older man looked at Ed. He wasn’t sure what he could say to him. His mind was racing. All the risks a second pregnancy would come with. What if Ed wouldn’t…? He couldn’t bring himself to end his thought. Then it hit him what Ed exactly had said. He inhaled deeply.
“You have changed the dose, haven’t you?” Ed didn’t need to look up to know that Roy was hurt that he had let him out of this, that he had taken his opportunity to say something against this pregnancy. He nodded once and shut his eyes. He wished he could hold his hands over his ears so that he wouldn’t have to hear the rejection. He wanted another child with his husband. It was his only wish in years. The blonde hadn’t even recognised that he had started to cry silently and that a sob had left his lips. He felt as Roy held him tight kissing the top of his head.
“Hush, hush. Don’t cry.” Now he felt like his child when Roy calmed her after she had hurt herself or when she was ill. It has always been the older man who calmed them both when ever they were hurt - physically and mentally. He buried his face into his lover’s chest. The dark-haired man stroked over the soft blond hair.
“I’m not angry Ed. I’m just… hurt that you didn’t tell me. We could have talked about it.” He shoved the younger man from his chest so that he could look into two watery golden eyes. He whipped the tears off the beautiful face and kissed the soft pink lips. “See, I’m not angry.” Ed just nodded. They still hadn’t talked over the fact that Ed wanted to get pregnant again.
“What…what do we do now? I mean I’m not…yet. I could still stop taking the stuff.” Roy smiled down at him but shook his head.
“This is the first wish you have in years. I’m not going to reject it. You always did something for others and I think you could be a bit more selfish.” He kissed the tip of the nose and leaned closer to the younger lover’s ear. “And I’m looking forward to your horny self again.” He smirked down at his blushing husband and stood up. He got out of his uniform.
“N…now?” Ed blushed heavily and looked down at his lap. Roy arched an eyebrow before he understood what Ed was referring to. He snickered.
“As much as I would love that, I have to reject this request, my love.” He kissed Ed again and got out of his pants as he spoke with his husband. “As Russel and Nina are downstairs I wouldn’t recommend doing that but I can assure you that we will do it more often from now on as we have to make sure you get pregnant.” He slipped into black slacks and got into a dark blue bottom-down shirt. He hung the uniform into the closet and walked back to his husband who had watched him the entire time.
“Why are you here anyway?”
“If you have forgotten it: Today is your birthday. I wanted to surprise you but you surprised me.” He kissed him and helped him to stand. The lovers made their way downstairs where Russel was waiting anxious for their return and curious what Roy would say about a second child. After everything was clear the younger blonde went back to the lab where he worked on some other experiment with another former state alchemist.
It was late evening as both lovers lay in bed waiting to make sure that Nina wouldn’t come over to sleep in their bed. They listened to any signs from outside before they agreed that the little girl wouldn’t come over tonight. Ed turned to his husband and got the patch from his face. It was the start for their amorous play nowadays. Slowly the older man kissed every inch of the younger’s face making his way down the neck to the collarbones. He sucked lightly and left a mark before he went further down to explore the scared chest. This place wasn’t new to him but it still felt good to hear these little moans from his lover’s mouth, to feel the twitch of the body when he licked the scar where the automail had once been. He unbuttoned the white dress shirt very slowly before he helped Ed to get rid of it. He drew lines on his lover’s chest with his tongue until he found the navel circling around it and going even further down. As he reached the waistband of the boxers he looked up. The younger man’s eyes were half closed and he was panting already. He sat on his heels and got out of his undershirt to tease his lover a bit more. Ed swallowed heavily as Roy was down again, hooking his fingers in the waistband. He arched his back and allowed his husband to pull them down so that he could get out of them. Roy did the same with his own boxers and lay down next to his husband to kiss him again. The blonde’s member was hard and it started leak pre cum. He didn’t know how long he could take it. Roy’s lips left his to get the lube from the night stand drawer. Ed spread his legs that the older man could lay down. He felt Roy’s hard cock against his own. He panted heavily and nearly chocked on his own breathing.
“R…Roy…” He arched his back to grind his hips against his lover’s. The older man smirked and started to move. Their groins rubbed against one another. The young man felt his climax nearing. He grabbed his husband’s back thrusting his hips against his lover’s. Moments later the hot liquid spilled out of him coating both of their lower bodies. Roy followed him soon after panting into his ear. The older man needed some time to regain his strength. He sat up again looking with his eye into two golden ones. That was everything the younger lover needed, to get hard again. The older husband smirked and got the lube. He coated three of his fingers with the clear liquid and lay back down between his lover’s legs. He kissed his crotch and licked nearly timidly over his groin. One finger moved into him without resistance. Soon a second finger followed to join the first in finding the special spot that made Ed see stars. It didn’t take long before Roy withdrew his fingers to replace it with something larger. The blonde breathed deeply and relaxed himself for his lover’s member. He spread his legs further to give him better access. Roy stopped ever so often to let Ed adjust to the feeling but being lovers for this long had made him loosen up a bit. He sighed as Roy was buried fully inside of him just lying on top of him like a heavy blanket.
“I love you, you know that?” The teen smiled at his lover’s words.
“I know. I love you, too.” Roy kissed him and started to move slowly. He loved to tease the younger lover but as Ed was still so tight and hot he couldn’t get himself to hold his pace so slowly. He moved faster trying to find Ed’s sweet spot. He knew that he had found it as Ed arched his back and gasped loudly. He thrust deeper until he could feel his second climax. He reached between their bodies to stroke Ed’s neglected length. It didn’t take them long before both reached their peak crying out each other’s name. The older lover collapsed on Ed’s body lying there until his weight got too much for Ed. He rolled over and looked into sleepy golden eyes. The blonde smiled and snuggled closer to Roy who pulled a blanket over their bodies to keep them from freezing.
2 weeks later (it’s already February)
Ed sat on the exam table waiting for Dr Knox. He could taste the bitter flavour of his morning sickness. It had been a week since it had started and Roy had brought a pregnancy test to confirm their suspicion. He sighed heavily. Roy was with him there holding his hand. He was far more anxious how the elder doctor would react. It wasn’t the first time that a male alchemist got pregnant after taking the stuff Ed had taken. The last time it was an accident but this time was different. Roy knew that the doctor had a temper; he just didn’t want to experience it. He swallowed as the door opened and relieved the elder doctor. Knox’s face was grim and her glared at the lovers. He made his way over and threw the chart on the table.
“ARE YOU STUPID?” Even Ed who normally could argue as loud as the doctor was taken aback from the volume of the elder man’s voice. “I THOUGHT YOU HAD READ THE FILE. I THOUGHT I HAD MADE MYSELF CLEAR.” He threw death glares at both of them. He sat on the chair and faced them. He took a deep breath and rubbed the bridge of his nose. “Whose idea was it?” He looked at them and Ed raised his hand timidly. The doctor grimaced and shook his head. “And you didn’t stop him?” He shot a glare at Roy who swallowed and shook his head. “You both are a nail in my coffin.” He sighed and got the chart back. “Okay you know the procedure. Ed, go to the bathroom and give us a urine sample. Then come back. I’m going to examine you after that.” The young man nodded, took the cup from the doctor and went to the bathroom. Roy looked after him. He didn’t want to be left alone with Knox. The doctor made him feel like a twelve-year old sometimes. Dr. Knox watched him.
“As long as Blondie is gone you can tell me why you didn’t stop him. This could kill him, damn it.” The elder man rubbed his temples. Roy braced himself to tell the doctor what he had told Ed.
“It was his only wish in years - since he was twelve years old to be exact. He only lived for others, at first for his brother and then for Nina and me. I granted him his wish because I think he should be a bit more selfish from time to time.” He swallowed heavily and waited for the doctor’s answer. The elder man stood up and walked over to the window.
“Couldn’t you grant him something different? Being selfish? He could have been selfish any other time.” He turned around to Roy. “But what’s done is done. I’ll help you through this and I help Ed to survive everything that comes with this second pregnancy. That’s a promise I made long ago.” He rubbed his bridge of the nose again and sighed. Roy remained on his chair looking at the doctor whose expression changed for a moment.
“Thank you.” The doctor nodded once. Ed came back and handed him the cup. Knox told a nurse to make the test and come back as soon as possible with the results. The blonde got back on the exam table where Knox started the examination. After two hours it was clear that Ed was pregnant with his second child. To prevent anything bad that could happen, the teen was put on bed rest until the baby was developed enough that even a premature birth wouldn’t be too hard on both of them.
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