Shit... Why can't I just escape?
I can't believe it. I tried my best on my speech today and my dad and mom is critizing me about the topic I chose and lectured me about it!
I fucking hate them right now... They're always pointing out what I did wrong and hardly ever what I did right! Can't they ever see that I already tried my best in the first place?
I work so hard at school just to make them happy, but they don't seem to see that... I devote time and everything I can to things at school and all they can do it point out my defects!
And my dad's always talking about promises and how I can kever keep them, when he fucking never lets me make anything else but promises. I always want to say that 'I'll just try my best' but he never takes that! I always have to make promises, so how can I keep them when I never wanted to make one in the first place?
I hate them right now. They always give me some reason to feel not good enough to recieve their compliments, and I can never take it. I don't tell anyone, not really even my best friend, but sometimes, I cry myself to sleep at night...
I always hope that something good will come out of what I do, but no matter what, they're never happy. Do you know how hard it is to make them proud?
Everybody expects so much out of me, which drives me harder - but never my parents... There's just...not really any point in the end, because, well, what's the point if they're not really going to congradulate you in the first place? Sometimes they do and says that they're happy for me, but I can see it in their eyes that half the time, it really doesn't seem like they mean it... It feels like trying to impress somebody that is apathetic.
They're always angry at me about something... And I can never expect what to see from them. No, not anymore. Someday, I've either got to start speaking up for myself, or just completely shut them out of my life...
They wonder why I have such low self-esteem... I'd think they already knew.
Sayonara,
Tenshi-Battosai
I fucking hate them right now... They're always pointing out what I did wrong and hardly ever what I did right! Can't they ever see that I already tried my best in the first place?
I work so hard at school just to make them happy, but they don't seem to see that... I devote time and everything I can to things at school and all they can do it point out my defects!
And my dad's always talking about promises and how I can kever keep them, when he fucking never lets me make anything else but promises. I always want to say that 'I'll just try my best' but he never takes that! I always have to make promises, so how can I keep them when I never wanted to make one in the first place?
I hate them right now. They always give me some reason to feel not good enough to recieve their compliments, and I can never take it. I don't tell anyone, not really even my best friend, but sometimes, I cry myself to sleep at night...
I always hope that something good will come out of what I do, but no matter what, they're never happy. Do you know how hard it is to make them proud?
Everybody expects so much out of me, which drives me harder - but never my parents... There's just...not really any point in the end, because, well, what's the point if they're not really going to congradulate you in the first place? Sometimes they do and says that they're happy for me, but I can see it in their eyes that half the time, it really doesn't seem like they mean it... It feels like trying to impress somebody that is apathetic.
They're always angry at me about something... And I can never expect what to see from them. No, not anymore. Someday, I've either got to start speaking up for myself, or just completely shut them out of my life...
They wonder why I have such low self-esteem... I'd think they already knew.
Sayonara,
Tenshi-Battosai