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she's trying not to get her hopes up about him,
im trying not to get my hopes up about her.
whether i have a chance or not, she's worth the try.
its just, well, i don't like my chances.
on to a different subject...
i love being alone, i hate being lonely.
i guess if i were to analyze that, then i would say that when i want to be alone, then i push everyone away. simple enough. But, i don't always want to be alone, so when i want people, these people aren't always there.
some people are never there.
Some people, you only hear from every few months.
its funny really, the ones that you hear from the least are the ones that i'm missing the most.
I would say that i wish things were back to the way they were, but they were never that good to begin with.
Oh, fyi to anyone who's reading.
I am not the suicide help line, ok? i cant help you. i will most likely push you over the edge. So, when you call me, after not speaking to me since last Yom Kippur, and tell me that your life isn't worth living through an onslaught of tears, do me a favor and slit your wrist already. i don't care that your boyfriend's ex-girlfriend is pregnant and neither should you, nor should you tell him that you are attracted to other men, especially when those other men are me. Last thing i want to deal with is boyfriends of girls i don't even find mildly attractive.
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... you know, i want to make you hurt. not alot, just what you do to me. but i cant, even if i could, something in me doesn't allow it. when your around, i feel like i have no real control over what i say or do. this pisses me off, i can't ever have you nor can i ever rid myself of you.
Man, that line works for a lot of you actually.
im trying not to get my hopes up about her.
whether i have a chance or not, she's worth the try.
its just, well, i don't like my chances.
on to a different subject...
i love being alone, i hate being lonely.
i guess if i were to analyze that, then i would say that when i want to be alone, then i push everyone away. simple enough. But, i don't always want to be alone, so when i want people, these people aren't always there.
some people are never there.
Some people, you only hear from every few months.
its funny really, the ones that you hear from the least are the ones that i'm missing the most.
I would say that i wish things were back to the way they were, but they were never that good to begin with.
Oh, fyi to anyone who's reading.
I am not the suicide help line, ok? i cant help you. i will most likely push you over the edge. So, when you call me, after not speaking to me since last Yom Kippur, and tell me that your life isn't worth living through an onslaught of tears, do me a favor and slit your wrist already. i don't care that your boyfriend's ex-girlfriend is pregnant and neither should you, nor should you tell him that you are attracted to other men, especially when those other men are me. Last thing i want to deal with is boyfriends of girls i don't even find mildly attractive.
...
... you know, i want to make you hurt. not alot, just what you do to me. but i cant, even if i could, something in me doesn't allow it. when your around, i feel like i have no real control over what i say or do. this pisses me off, i can't ever have you nor can i ever rid myself of you.
Man, that line works for a lot of you actually.