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i need...people to grow up and take control of their lives. to understand that yes, shit happens and it sucks horribly, but that whatever stresses/dangers/problems are fleeting. while they are definitely detrimental in the present, they more often then not result in some growth or benefit in the future. maybe not incredibly comforting in the present, but life doesn't offer free-bees. nothing is simple, you've got to work for it. and i know i stress about things just as much as anyone else does, but i've learned to deal with quite a few things and i know i've still quite a lot to learn to deal with. point is, i'm working on it with both positive and negative results. accept it, learn from it, and deal.
i need to find housing for next year. i keep emailing and calling places and i'm not getting anywhere. i'm trying. i admit i probably should have started sooner, but i got distracted and now its become a major concern. mea culpa. i'll find something because there is no other option. it just means something i've got to make sure i'm on top of.
i need my mom to understand that simply applying for grad school when i'm more than certain i won't have anything to prove that i'm a capable and desirable applicant is rather futile. i plan to finish next year and secure an internship in an appropriate facility/program while studying for the GRE. i know i won't have stellar grades especially with this quarter's grades. i know i need to get a really good GRE score to be considered and i would very much like to take the time to prepare myself and i don't think that a summer will be sufficient. i don't think that she understands either that since this is my second major, my anthro classes won't matter. i need to have gone through a majority of my psych major to have something to show these grad programs. i understand why she's worried and i don't fault her for that, but i need her to have a bit more faith in me. i need her to understand that i do fully understand my current chances of getting into grad school and that i know what i more or less need to do to become a viable candidate. i won't get stuck in a rut. i know too much rides on me going to grad school. i've known since i was in elementary school. trust me...i know its not a viable option and i don't really want it to be. i think i need to get the materials and talk to her, but its up to her to be willing to understand. i don't think i'm quite ready for grad school. i might be, but i think the year internship will definitely make me ready.
i need to find housing for next year. i keep emailing and calling places and i'm not getting anywhere. i'm trying. i admit i probably should have started sooner, but i got distracted and now its become a major concern. mea culpa. i'll find something because there is no other option. it just means something i've got to make sure i'm on top of.
i need my mom to understand that simply applying for grad school when i'm more than certain i won't have anything to prove that i'm a capable and desirable applicant is rather futile. i plan to finish next year and secure an internship in an appropriate facility/program while studying for the GRE. i know i won't have stellar grades especially with this quarter's grades. i know i need to get a really good GRE score to be considered and i would very much like to take the time to prepare myself and i don't think that a summer will be sufficient. i don't think that she understands either that since this is my second major, my anthro classes won't matter. i need to have gone through a majority of my psych major to have something to show these grad programs. i understand why she's worried and i don't fault her for that, but i need her to have a bit more faith in me. i need her to understand that i do fully understand my current chances of getting into grad school and that i know what i more or less need to do to become a viable candidate. i won't get stuck in a rut. i know too much rides on me going to grad school. i've known since i was in elementary school. trust me...i know its not a viable option and i don't really want it to be. i think i need to get the materials and talk to her, but its up to her to be willing to understand. i don't think i'm quite ready for grad school. i might be, but i think the year internship will definitely make me ready.