Since I have time...
It's 4:25 and I'm pretty much done everything I've want to and/or can justify doing (ha, rationilizing work is terrible!) so now I'm just sort of having talks with Cheryl about her girlfriend and the like and so on, but there's more.
Hey guys.
Look.
Look.
Just look at it.
And that's a downplayed set of stats and everything.
The BBC is continuing their grand tradition of othering the entire SE Asian region, and I continue to roll my eyes at them. However, there is also the horrible situation that is happening.
How the hell do I even deal with this at work.
Oh, that's right.
I HAVE TO TRY TO IGNORE IT.
So I spoke with Cheryl about Erte, her own artwork, commissioning, how people who are commissioned tend to get fucked over by non-art afficiandos, etc.
But I geuss I can also talk about why I'm pissed at Jackass Young.
So, most of my friends know but if you don't - Blu passed away on September 13th, 2007. I was pretty disstraught for quite a time, but I have managed to deal with it alright. His death was really marking for a time of transition; I had just gotten a job and it was the day of Monica's Hindu wedding, my brother had just moved out... Lots of things were changing. I suppose goddess thought that my little bird couldn't be a part of it like this anymore, so now he's become a shining star in the sky.
Granted, I can say that now but during the day I was a wreck. I was pretty bad company during the wedding even though it was awesome and Sachin & Monica have some fucking sexy family. But my bird had just died. My bird was my constant companion and I adored him and I can't believe he's gone.
And that's me -now-. So, really - I am not a silly person, I knew I could use some support. Catherine was in Windsor and to be honest, she would sit and let me be my mourning self but she'd made her opinion on birds as pet known and while that's her perogative... I was a little too sensitive to basically have the thought of 'Well, she doesn't really think that a bird is a worthwhile pet anyway' in the back of my head. So really, even if she was here I sort of doubt I would call her because of my own honest shortcomings.
Rob I hadn't called in months so what the hell was I going to say to him?
Long story short, I decided that it was pertinent to ask Albert Young, subtitle Jackass Supreme. The one time I wasn't at my best Al was good at being support, plus there was the fact that 1) he would not try to convince me right of the bat that Blu was in a better place or shit because he barely speaks, 2) he wouldn't mind me sort of just sitting there with him, and 3) he's sensitive enough internally to appreciate what I am pretty much going there. Now, all of those three things tend to be true.
Unfortunately, I learned he sort of... lacks complete tact as a human being. I MSN'd him basically saying 'I feel like shit internally, and I would really appreciate it if you could come over so we could hang.'. This would also benefit whatever relationship we had positively left; I felt we needed to speak about why we didn't talk for two freaking months but he still acts like we're good and I could give him his birthday gift. But mostly, it was because I sort of felt I needed some support at the time.
He didn't reply to me, and I was tired after about... an hour and a half, so I let him know that he could text me and that I'd still like him to come over if it's alright. The next morning, I get up and go on MSN - it archives the messages you got while you're offline, and his (the first since we spoke at FanExpo) can basically be summed up as -
1) Uh, are you alright?
2) Um, it's kind of wierd that you came to me of all people. Isn't there anyone closer to you that you'd rather talk to first?
3) I hope you feel better.
Please don't tell me I have to explain why the above is a bad thing. A very bad thing. I would have accepted if he didn't feel up to travelling or something, but his reason for not coming was because he didn't feel like he was close enough to me comparitively. He took something that was about me and made it about him.
And that's just one thing wrong with that.
Terrible, terrible human being. I don't want to ruin Ouiji's trip, and I won't. But if we are ever alone together, you had better believe that he is like, getting stabbed in the face.
Terrible human being.
Just terrible.
Alright so yeah. It's 4:45 now, and.... ugh, what am I oh shit I have to make sure I get the insurance form to Anna. >O I keep forgetting.
Mostly because I'm thinking about the monks.
Hey guys.
Look.
Look.
Just look at it.
And that's a downplayed set of stats and everything.
The BBC is continuing their grand tradition of othering the entire SE Asian region, and I continue to roll my eyes at them. However, there is also the horrible situation that is happening.
How the hell do I even deal with this at work.
Oh, that's right.
I HAVE TO TRY TO IGNORE IT.
So I spoke with Cheryl about Erte, her own artwork, commissioning, how people who are commissioned tend to get fucked over by non-art afficiandos, etc.
But I geuss I can also talk about why I'm pissed at Jackass Young.
So, most of my friends know but if you don't - Blu passed away on September 13th, 2007. I was pretty disstraught for quite a time, but I have managed to deal with it alright. His death was really marking for a time of transition; I had just gotten a job and it was the day of Monica's Hindu wedding, my brother had just moved out... Lots of things were changing. I suppose goddess thought that my little bird couldn't be a part of it like this anymore, so now he's become a shining star in the sky.
Granted, I can say that now but during the day I was a wreck. I was pretty bad company during the wedding even though it was awesome and Sachin & Monica have some fucking sexy family. But my bird had just died. My bird was my constant companion and I adored him and I can't believe he's gone.
And that's me -now-. So, really - I am not a silly person, I knew I could use some support. Catherine was in Windsor and to be honest, she would sit and let me be my mourning self but she'd made her opinion on birds as pet known and while that's her perogative... I was a little too sensitive to basically have the thought of 'Well, she doesn't really think that a bird is a worthwhile pet anyway' in the back of my head. So really, even if she was here I sort of doubt I would call her because of my own honest shortcomings.
Rob I hadn't called in months so what the hell was I going to say to him?
Long story short, I decided that it was pertinent to ask Albert Young, subtitle Jackass Supreme. The one time I wasn't at my best Al was good at being support, plus there was the fact that 1) he would not try to convince me right of the bat that Blu was in a better place or shit because he barely speaks, 2) he wouldn't mind me sort of just sitting there with him, and 3) he's sensitive enough internally to appreciate what I am pretty much going there. Now, all of those three things tend to be true.
Unfortunately, I learned he sort of... lacks complete tact as a human being. I MSN'd him basically saying 'I feel like shit internally, and I would really appreciate it if you could come over so we could hang.'. This would also benefit whatever relationship we had positively left; I felt we needed to speak about why we didn't talk for two freaking months but he still acts like we're good and I could give him his birthday gift. But mostly, it was because I sort of felt I needed some support at the time.
He didn't reply to me, and I was tired after about... an hour and a half, so I let him know that he could text me and that I'd still like him to come over if it's alright. The next morning, I get up and go on MSN - it archives the messages you got while you're offline, and his (the first since we spoke at FanExpo) can basically be summed up as -
1) Uh, are you alright?
2) Um, it's kind of wierd that you came to me of all people. Isn't there anyone closer to you that you'd rather talk to first?
3) I hope you feel better.
Please don't tell me I have to explain why the above is a bad thing. A very bad thing. I would have accepted if he didn't feel up to travelling or something, but his reason for not coming was because he didn't feel like he was close enough to me comparitively. He took something that was about me and made it about him.
And that's just one thing wrong with that.
Terrible, terrible human being. I don't want to ruin Ouiji's trip, and I won't. But if we are ever alone together, you had better believe that he is like, getting stabbed in the face.
Terrible human being.
Just terrible.
Alright so yeah. It's 4:45 now, and.... ugh, what am I oh shit I have to make sure I get the insurance form to Anna. >O I keep forgetting.
Mostly because I'm thinking about the monks.