Sanity
I'm trying to keep a positive, upbeat attitude towards my whole experience with my foot. Unfortuntely I am getting antsy on the third day and I have to endure 7 and half more weeks of it. The only thing I am looking forward to right now is my vicodin because that means after I take it I will no longer see daylight for the next 12 hours. If that's what going to keep me sane...that will be it. It's funny how when you can go out and do stuff you don't want to. Or someone invites you out somewhere and you say no because you just want to stay in. Then all of a sudden you have to be holed up for 8 weeks and you realize how foolish you were for not ever going out and doing things. I am officially declaring for myself that I will never NOT go out again after this experience. I shall be on the prowl everyday this summer nonstop. I have taken for granted the advantages I could have had and refused them...well not anymore. I am a changed woman darnit! I shall go out and experience greatness this summer! TV never looked so bad to me as it does right now and I am going mad trying to stare at it 12 hours a day. But what else is there to do? All I want is that special person to come over and hang out with me...but at the same time I understand the facts of life and there are other people in this world to hang out with. I really want one specific person to come over...but I want them to come over because they want to..not because they feel bad about doing it. But I don't see that happening. They have other people in their lives that want to hang out with them. All I know is that when I am better...I will remember who was here and who wasn't. I'm not just talking one time you come over either...that doesn't count. I will know who my real friends are when all this is said and done. Anyways...I am done for now...I shall return later. Of course everyone is out doing stuff so I won't responses back anyways...ttyl