A Change Will Do You Good
So I went out last night to a few local gay bars with my 2 best friends. First time in a while that I went out here in Pittsburgh. When Ian and I went to the after-hours bar, I realized once again that I am ready for a change of venue, meaning I'm ready to leave Pittsburgh. Granted, it's not that I hate Pittsburgh. On the contrary, I do enjoy living here. But I think before I start to hate this town, I should get out of here. Yes, it will suck leaving some people here, especially my closest friends (one of which is my ex). I just need a change.
So where to, you may ask? Well, as the majority of you know, I've started seeing that sweetheart of a man
usmcbeardad. So anything that would bring me closer to him would be ideal. It would also be prudent to choose a place where I can go to graduate school. So right now, it looks like I'll be moving to NYC. Columbia has a program that, at least on paper, fits exactly what I want to do as far as career aspirations. As I was telling
cutepacub the other night, part of me wishes that I could start grad school this coming fall, and not fall 2008. But, I need the time to prepare myself physically, mentally, and emotionally for the move. I have lived in Pittsburgh for nearly 11 years. So for one, I have a lot of ties here. Second, I have a lot of crap here. LOL. Third, I also have to make sure that NYC is where I will end up. While Columbia is the top choice, there are a number of other schools around that I could go to. Also,
usmcbeardad is being very supportive and wants me to go where I feel I will receive the best education (he's a keeper, folks!). So while NYC seems to be the clear choice, it's not where I necessarily have to end up.
What is interesting about this whole situation is that I probably would not have considered any changes whatsoever had I not talked to
usmcbeardad that fateful February evening. February 3rd to be exact, for 4 hours. I didn't know that it would lead to me falling for the man, but I realized then that I may be selling myself short in a number of areas: my relationship, my happiness, my education, etc. Just because I didn't see a reason to change and leave Pittsburgh. Don't get me wrong, Greg is a great man, and I still have good feelings towards the man. Hell, I still live with him, and I worry about him probably just as much as I did as we were together. But I needed something else. Something more. Something that felt a bit more physical, more protective. I'm getting that right now, and it's a good thing. :-)
In short, I'm just about ready to "bounce", to "roll up outta here".
So where to, you may ask? Well, as the majority of you know, I've started seeing that sweetheart of a man
usmcbeardad. So anything that would bring me closer to him would be ideal. It would also be prudent to choose a place where I can go to graduate school. So right now, it looks like I'll be moving to NYC. Columbia has a program that, at least on paper, fits exactly what I want to do as far as career aspirations. As I was telling
cutepacub the other night, part of me wishes that I could start grad school this coming fall, and not fall 2008. But, I need the time to prepare myself physically, mentally, and emotionally for the move. I have lived in Pittsburgh for nearly 11 years. So for one, I have a lot of ties here. Second, I have a lot of crap here. LOL. Third, I also have to make sure that NYC is where I will end up. While Columbia is the top choice, there are a number of other schools around that I could go to. Also,
usmcbeardad is being very supportive and wants me to go where I feel I will receive the best education (he's a keeper, folks!). So while NYC seems to be the clear choice, it's not where I necessarily have to end up.
What is interesting about this whole situation is that I probably would not have considered any changes whatsoever had I not talked to
usmcbeardad that fateful February evening. February 3rd to be exact, for 4 hours. I didn't know that it would lead to me falling for the man, but I realized then that I may be selling myself short in a number of areas: my relationship, my happiness, my education, etc. Just because I didn't see a reason to change and leave Pittsburgh. Don't get me wrong, Greg is a great man, and I still have good feelings towards the man. Hell, I still live with him, and I worry about him probably just as much as I did as we were together. But I needed something else. Something more. Something that felt a bit more physical, more protective. I'm getting that right now, and it's a good thing. :-)
In short, I'm just about ready to "bounce", to "roll up outta here".