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looks like he's trying to beat his other record.....i guess i'll just have to endure it painfully.
another 6 days and he will have tied his record of 18 days passed without talking to me
right now i'm betting that he won't call till the 23rd...our 9 month....makes me wonder....3 months after that is our 1 yr....are we going to do anything special? will we go on an actual date?...i mean its a year now. i don't think he really cares to go on one or anything...but i mean THIS IS my FIRST relationship.....and i have yet to ever go on a date...but its up to him, just likie everything else is....like when he calls me, when comes to see me and all that jazz.
Davis is my new boyfriend because nikolai went to a different class...he got so upset when i left the last time. and he absolutely loves pulling adam's necklace...i swear to you that the kid is trying to take it off...he goes at it every week.
should i get adam something for our one year anniversary? heck i don't even know if we're going to see each other...i should stop, i don't want to get my heart broken...hoping that he'll come and then he doesnt...but i mean i can still get him something that i can give him like the next time i see him....dammit i just realized that THERE IS NO CHANCE IN HELL he'd ever be able to come down for both our one month and my birthday....this is why in the calendar holidays are spaced appropriately...he should have waited to ask me out....6 days in between my birthday and our anniversay...sooooo not cool...i mean come on...the present situation there absolutely fucking sucks...but then again i know that he can't afford to get me anything anyway...so its not like i should be pissed off right?!???? i'm just glad that my birthday isn't anywhere near christmas!
i want to go to the TT Lounge..but i have no one to go with, i am fully aware that it is less than 50ft from my apt building but the thing is that i can only charge to my credit card and there is a minimum charge of $5.00...and in order to spend $5 you have to buy at least 2 drinks....theres no way i can drink two of them on my own.
I want a skateboard...i established this after i watched grind for the 4th time and since then i have seen it 21 more times...therefor i now want one so much more than before...and i wanted to learn how to skate over the summer...but the summer is passing by day by day....of course i can't go to a skate shop by myself...well i mean i could, i know that i've got to buy a deck, grip tape for the deck, wheels, and trucks....but there are so many different ones...so i figure i'll tell him what deck i want and then he'll do all that other stuff for me...that is unless i intend on getting one of the boards thats already put together....hmmmm it'd be cheaper that way....this is why i need adam here!!!!!!! GEEZE and i've been saving up for this too!
and it looks like that list of about 50 things i wanted to do with adam...well yeah thats NOT going to happen...because at this point it doesn't seem like he wants to stay here with me...i mean we accomplished one thing...which was to watch big daddy...but that didn't happen over the summer...it happened in the spring when he came to visit me...remember??? that day that motherfucker stole my shit....he's such a fucking dick licking jackass fucking punk ass mother fucking bitch.
....anyway.....
i want to get a skateboard...and skate...now!