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omgosh, its been so long since ive updated, probably over a year!
i'm just sort of feeling sentimental & just felt like writing in here. although im not really sure what im going to say...
so far this summer has been okay. i have a job, which seems like its going to be fun, so thats good, but it hgasnt really started so its hard to tell.
other than that, ive got nothin.
i have nothing to do when im back here in ap. i really miss being at school. here, i pretty much have nothing to do. no, correction, i have nothing to do. ive become the most boring/bored person ever. no one calls me & i have no one to call. i dont really talk to anyone anymore, & the ppl i do actually talk to all have a ton of other friends & stuff to do & dont have time to hang out with me. i dunno...things change, ppl change, like you know that thats true, but when it actually happens, its weird. like i cant be mad or anything that ppl have other things to do & other friends, they should! it just makes me kind of sad to think about how much things do change. one in particular. i havent talked to her in over a year & i so much want to talk to her & call her & see her! but i cant pick up the phone and do it, im afraid it'll be awkward & it wont be the same at all & i dont even know if shed want to talk to me. i dunno, i dunno. one other person kind of made me mad (who i have never before in my life been mad at) the other day & was acting so weird that i dont even know what to think....
all of my friends at school all have best friends at home, best friends that they call & talk about all the time, & i realized i dont have that anymore.
i hate to say this but sometimes, even now i think about high school & i admit, i do miss it every now & then. i miss my friends & it just makes me sad that we're not close anymore when we said (& i totally believed) that we would be. we all have our own lives now that dont really involve each other...like i feel like we really dont even know each other anymore because of all the time that has gone by. im not like saying anything about anyone because its totally my fault.
i dont know, i think im just rambling.
goodnight
i'm just sort of feeling sentimental & just felt like writing in here. although im not really sure what im going to say...
so far this summer has been okay. i have a job, which seems like its going to be fun, so thats good, but it hgasnt really started so its hard to tell.
other than that, ive got nothin.
i have nothing to do when im back here in ap. i really miss being at school. here, i pretty much have nothing to do. no, correction, i have nothing to do. ive become the most boring/bored person ever. no one calls me & i have no one to call. i dont really talk to anyone anymore, & the ppl i do actually talk to all have a ton of other friends & stuff to do & dont have time to hang out with me. i dunno...things change, ppl change, like you know that thats true, but when it actually happens, its weird. like i cant be mad or anything that ppl have other things to do & other friends, they should! it just makes me kind of sad to think about how much things do change. one in particular. i havent talked to her in over a year & i so much want to talk to her & call her & see her! but i cant pick up the phone and do it, im afraid it'll be awkward & it wont be the same at all & i dont even know if shed want to talk to me. i dunno, i dunno. one other person kind of made me mad (who i have never before in my life been mad at) the other day & was acting so weird that i dont even know what to think....
all of my friends at school all have best friends at home, best friends that they call & talk about all the time, & i realized i dont have that anymore.
i hate to say this but sometimes, even now i think about high school & i admit, i do miss it every now & then. i miss my friends & it just makes me sad that we're not close anymore when we said (& i totally believed) that we would be. we all have our own lives now that dont really involve each other...like i feel like we really dont even know each other anymore because of all the time that has gone by. im not like saying anything about anyone because its totally my fault.
i dont know, i think im just rambling.
goodnight