Tennis Hiatus
I...I won't be participating in the first half of the tennis season this year. Maybe longer. I'm sorry Tezuka, it looks like our showdown may have to be delayed for a while yet. And I'm sorry to you Echizen, Kazuya, since I won't be able to have any official rematches with you two either.
I suppose I owe an explanation for this. It seems auto-immune disorders run in the family. My little sister Minoru has Relapsing Multiple Sclerosis. I knew there was something wrong with her! I just knew it! And it turns out she wasn't telling me this at all. I had to find out the hard way when she just collapsed in the middle of the street. I took her to the hospital and she was already a regular patient and everyone knew her by name just like they knew me. Imagine my surprise when they told me it was getting worse by the day and she is very likely to not be able to walk soon.
My parents can't look after her; they weren't even able to tell that there was something wrong with her in the first place. They were barely around when I was a kid and in the hospital, what's going to guarantee they'll be around for a quasi-adult? She needs someone more reliable to be there for a while, somebody who'll always be there. Or else you just go....utterly mad in a hospital when you can't do anything. You really do.
And it was a difficult decision to make...but I'm no longer the kid from ten years ago, who valued tennis above people. My family comes first. So, I'm sorry. I'll be back in Tokyo earlier than I expected. Minoru'll be living with me now. And I won't be leaving Japan for tournaments for quite a while. Not until she feels more comfortable about living with it. Since there's no cure for it.
I don't know what I'm going to do. Living with her's going to be a constant reminder of what I went through for two whole years. How....how do I keep walking and smiling and pretending that everything's okay for her? And there's no miracle surgery or cure for her. No future in sight for her...
I....can't. She wanted to be an engineer more than anything. She was so much smarter than me. And now, she has trouble seeing and soon she'll have trouble with her memory and piecing things together. It's...not fair. It's not fair. I'd trade my life for hers in a heartbeat. She has so much to do and see. It's not fair. She's my little sister...and seeing her like this hurts so much more than knowing that I could die. Is this what love is?
There are medications to make things better. And I can get her to the best rehab centres in all of Japan. But she has to want to get better, but she's so depressed and resigned, I'm not even sure that she does. It's foreign to me. I can't imagine not trying to live. Maybe I'm reading it wrong. I just don't know anymore. I really don't.
-Seiichi
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I suppose I owe an explanation for this. It seems auto-immune disorders run in the family. My little sister Minoru has Relapsing Multiple Sclerosis. I knew there was something wrong with her! I just knew it! And it turns out she wasn't telling me this at all. I had to find out the hard way when she just collapsed in the middle of the street. I took her to the hospital and she was already a regular patient and everyone knew her by name just like they knew me. Imagine my surprise when they told me it was getting worse by the day and she is very likely to not be able to walk soon.
My parents can't look after her; they weren't even able to tell that there was something wrong with her in the first place. They were barely around when I was a kid and in the hospital, what's going to guarantee they'll be around for a quasi-adult? She needs someone more reliable to be there for a while, somebody who'll always be there. Or else you just go....utterly mad in a hospital when you can't do anything. You really do.
And it was a difficult decision to make...but I'm no longer the kid from ten years ago, who valued tennis above people. My family comes first. So, I'm sorry. I'll be back in Tokyo earlier than I expected. Minoru'll be living with me now. And I won't be leaving Japan for tournaments for quite a while. Not until she feels more comfortable about living with it. Since there's no cure for it.
I don't know what I'm going to do. Living with her's going to be a constant reminder of what I went through for two whole years. How....how do I keep walking and smiling and pretending that everything's okay for her? And there's no miracle surgery or cure for her. No future in sight for her...
I....can't. She wanted to be an engineer more than anything. She was so much smarter than me. And now, she has trouble seeing and soon she'll have trouble with her memory and piecing things together. It's...not fair. It's not fair. I'd trade my life for hers in a heartbeat. She has so much to do and see. It's not fair. She's my little sister...and seeing her like this hurts so much more than knowing that I could die. Is this what love is?
There are medications to make things better. And I can get her to the best rehab centres in all of Japan. But she has to want to get better, but she's so depressed and resigned, I'm not even sure that she does. It's foreign to me. I can't imagine not trying to live. Maybe I'm reading it wrong. I just don't know anymore. I really don't.
-Seiichi
[ooc: Strikes deleted]