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So I am getting sick. My throat is killing me, had a little mini-puke, and all I want to do is sleep. However, tomorrow is Alpha Phi's founder's day and I am going down to UCI with my sisters to celebrate the 132nd anniversary of our fraternity. I am actually pretty excited because I get to see a lot of my southwest regional friends that I met at convention and random gatherings.
I have been struggling a lot with my violin playing and my lately, and it's gotten to a point where I just want to quit it all together at the end of the semester. I had a violin lesson today at 3 (my teacher couldn't make it out on Thursday so she rescheduled it) and we talked for about 30 minutes about just everything I had been going through. If anything, I see my violin teacher in a completely different light now, and it's weird because we really have a lot in common. I always knew from the very beginning that she is a very optimistic person, just through her personality and teaching style. She never makes me feel inferior or that I suck. Even when I don't play as well, she words her comments in a way where it becomes constructive criticism, instead of destructive, which so many of my teachers have. But basically she told me that since I only have 1 1/2 semesters left in the department, that I should just stick it out. She also addressed my concern about putting down both violin and piano down on my graduate school apps, and made me feel a little better and more secure about everything. And even though Sara Banta's name was never even mentioned in the entire conversation, Lisa finally saw how emotional and frustrated I am with Sara, and just exactly how much she has hurt me over these years. It really eats away at you... I never have had someone effect me quite the way Sara does.
The other night, I was talking to one of my girls just random stuff, and she made one little comment to me that totally made me feel like my entire presidency was worth while. She said "I have never been happier to be an Alpha Phi" and coming from her, I knew that it wasn't just her that was feeling like this, but an awesome majority. This was exactly what I set out to accomplish at the beginning of my term last December, and it has finally been acheived. Although there have definitely been a lot of hard times and challenges, I am extremely proud of the way things have finally been turning out. Chapter morale is way up right now, we had the most successful recruitment we have ever had in the history of our chapter, girls are starting to see past the small groups and really reach out to each other, and that's what we're all about when it comes down to it... sisterhood.
I'm living in an amazing time right now. So much excitement, lots of change, lots of unknowns... but that's what makes everything so great.
I have been struggling a lot with my violin playing and my lately, and it's gotten to a point where I just want to quit it all together at the end of the semester. I had a violin lesson today at 3 (my teacher couldn't make it out on Thursday so she rescheduled it) and we talked for about 30 minutes about just everything I had been going through. If anything, I see my violin teacher in a completely different light now, and it's weird because we really have a lot in common. I always knew from the very beginning that she is a very optimistic person, just through her personality and teaching style. She never makes me feel inferior or that I suck. Even when I don't play as well, she words her comments in a way where it becomes constructive criticism, instead of destructive, which so many of my teachers have. But basically she told me that since I only have 1 1/2 semesters left in the department, that I should just stick it out. She also addressed my concern about putting down both violin and piano down on my graduate school apps, and made me feel a little better and more secure about everything. And even though Sara Banta's name was never even mentioned in the entire conversation, Lisa finally saw how emotional and frustrated I am with Sara, and just exactly how much she has hurt me over these years. It really eats away at you... I never have had someone effect me quite the way Sara does.
The other night, I was talking to one of my girls just random stuff, and she made one little comment to me that totally made me feel like my entire presidency was worth while. She said "I have never been happier to be an Alpha Phi" and coming from her, I knew that it wasn't just her that was feeling like this, but an awesome majority. This was exactly what I set out to accomplish at the beginning of my term last December, and it has finally been acheived. Although there have definitely been a lot of hard times and challenges, I am extremely proud of the way things have finally been turning out. Chapter morale is way up right now, we had the most successful recruitment we have ever had in the history of our chapter, girls are starting to see past the small groups and really reach out to each other, and that's what we're all about when it comes down to it... sisterhood.
I'm living in an amazing time right now. So much excitement, lots of change, lots of unknowns... but that's what makes everything so great.