#73 [Filtered from known enemies]
[Private]
...It was a stupid argument. I don't know why I let it get to me the way it did. It shouldn't have gotten to be the mess that it is. I'm sure Remington probably thinks I'm horrible now.
I wonder if this is really a good thing. Us being together. It's always been difficult, but I thought that after Joshua was safe, everything would work itself out. Of course that didn't work out exactly what we were thinking. We thought that after we took off the horns he'd be okay. In hindsight, that was...too simple. Of course Joshua's going to be upset over what happened, even if he wasn't in control.
But...I'm starting to think I'm not very good at this. I want to make her happy, but that never really happens. Even with my horns, I can't fix things for her. I'm not helping, I'm just part of the problem. I'm one more thing she has to worry about while she tries to take care of Joshua.
Maybe it's selfish. I've always known I wouldn't be a priority...maybe I'm trying to make myself too important to her. Things just seemed...better when I was just her friend. I've taken enough away from her--from both of them. I've been saying this was for her, trying to convince myself that this was just to make her happy, but...if it's not...I shouldn't demand anything else from her, should I?
...I need to think about this.
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[Opera filter]
Rosette, I made a cake for you. It's on the counter in the kitchen.
Nobody else eat it, okay? It's Rosette's. If you want something I can make something for you later, but that's for Rosette.
Oh, and Rue...welcome back.
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Is it just me, or has it been getting colder lately? And snowing a lot more, too...I hope it doesn't snow enough that we'll get snowed in. Is Joshua taking care of himself? Is it warm where he is? I hope he's not doing something stupid like Rosette...no, he probably is. They're too much alike sometimes.
Hmm...you know, I probably should get some supplies, just in case. Hot chocolate and stuff like that...maybe some games to play if we get stuck in the Opera? Any requests while I'm out?
I'm heading to the store now, so just message me here if you need me, alright? Being alone will give me some time to think, too.
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[Private to Joshua]
I know you might not want to talk to me, so feel free to ignore this...but do you want me to get anything for you while I'm shopping? I could take it wherever you'd like.
If you don't say anything, I'll just assume it's a "no". I hope this isn't a bother...it's just a little cold, and I want to make sure you have everything you need.
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((OOC: Icon shows as "I feel fine" and mood reads as "working".
Two random facts that will help make this entry make more sense:
-Rosette and Chrono haven't been talking all that much since the New Year, particularly in the last week or so.
-As a consequence, Chrono has no idea Rosette's already seen Joshua and given him a ton of stuff. She just stole his cooking.
This also deals somewhat with the aftermath of the fight that resulted in this thread. Chrono spent most of yesterday sulking in his room over it before coming to the point where he is today.))
...It was a stupid argument. I don't know why I let it get to me the way it did. It shouldn't have gotten to be the mess that it is. I'm sure Remington probably thinks I'm horrible now.
I wonder if this is really a good thing. Us being together. It's always been difficult, but I thought that after Joshua was safe, everything would work itself out. Of course that didn't work out exactly what we were thinking. We thought that after we took off the horns he'd be okay. In hindsight, that was...too simple. Of course Joshua's going to be upset over what happened, even if he wasn't in control.
But...I'm starting to think I'm not very good at this. I want to make her happy, but that never really happens. Even with my horns, I can't fix things for her. I'm not helping, I'm just part of the problem. I'm one more thing she has to worry about while she tries to take care of Joshua.
Maybe it's selfish. I've always known I wouldn't be a priority...maybe I'm trying to make myself too important to her. Things just seemed...better when I was just her friend. I've taken enough away from her--from both of them. I've been saying this was for her, trying to convince myself that this was just to make her happy, but...if it's not...I shouldn't demand anything else from her, should I?
...I need to think about this.
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[Opera filter]
Rosette, I made a cake for you. It's on the counter in the kitchen.
Nobody else eat it, okay? It's Rosette's. If you want something I can make something for you later, but that's for Rosette.
Oh, and Rue...welcome back.
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Is it just me, or has it been getting colder lately? And snowing a lot more, too...I hope it doesn't snow enough that we'll get snowed in. Is Joshua taking care of himself? Is it warm where he is? I hope he's not doing something stupid like Rosette...no, he probably is. They're too much alike sometimes.
Hmm...you know, I probably should get some supplies, just in case. Hot chocolate and stuff like that...maybe some games to play if we get stuck in the Opera? Any requests while I'm out?
I'm heading to the store now, so just message me here if you need me, alright? Being alone will give me some time to think, too.
...
[Private to Joshua]
I know you might not want to talk to me, so feel free to ignore this...but do you want me to get anything for you while I'm shopping? I could take it wherever you'd like.
If you don't say anything, I'll just assume it's a "no". I hope this isn't a bother...it's just a little cold, and I want to make sure you have everything you need.
[/private]
((OOC: Icon shows as "I feel fine" and mood reads as "working".
Two random facts that will help make this entry make more sense:
-Rosette and Chrono haven't been talking all that much since the New Year, particularly in the last week or so.
-As a consequence, Chrono has no idea Rosette's already seen Joshua and given him a ton of stuff. She just stole his cooking.
This also deals somewhat with the aftermath of the fight that resulted in this thread. Chrono spent most of yesterday sulking in his room over it before coming to the point where he is today.))