#038 (Day 147)
[Private//Very difficult to hack]
...I still can't sleep. Every time I try, I just have the same dreams over and over again. I'm so tired of this...
...I know I shouldn't be. Heh. Rosette must be more tired than I am, but she's trying so hard to not let it show. I can sense it...she probably knows I can. We both know, but neither of us will say anything, will we? We have to keep pretending so we can go on and smile and laugh and ignore everything crashing down around us.
Why did I have to wear that watch?! Why couldn't I have left it with her? Why didn't I trust Shiki and Amelia? Why didn't I let Shiki help me?!
...I can't even answer, can I?
I can't keep thinking about this. I know I just have to keep going. I know that. I know that I can't keep looking to the past, can't keep comparing it to Mary, can't...
If I walk backwards, I'll hit lampposts. I think that's what Shiki said. I know he's right...I'm sure Rosette would agree with him......Maybe Mary, too.
Keep looking forward. I just have to focus...
I'll just browse the Network until I can sleep.
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[Private to Rosette//unhackable]
...Rosette...can you sleep? That's a stupid question, isn't it?
Are you doing okay? I mean...No, no, sorry. Don't pay that any mind.
Are you...worried about me? I'd rather you focused on yourself--
Do you blame me? Are you angry with me? Could I have found another way? How can you bare to even speak to me when--?
Agh! Why am I asking--?? Delete! Delete, why won't this--?
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[Private to Joshua//unhackable]
How could you do this to your sister? Why can't you see who she is? Why couldn't you target me, instead?
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[Private to Aion//unhackable]
Why?
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[private to Fakir//unhackable]
Are you angry about me for that curse day when...? You know I'm sorry for that, right? I--
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WHY CAN'T I STOP ASKING QUESTIONS?!
((OOC: Chrono = very very badly affected.))