today.........
things will always be this way.....
i am really starting to hate school ALOT!
its like i cant have more than one good day in a week
and it really sucks bcuz it really effects me and when i am
around other people i am just really grumpy
i hate bad days and i really hate being adopted its so
fucking complicated..everything has to be so screwed up for me
no matter what...why do people screw up doing the same thing more than once
maybe if they werent so fucking dumb maybe they would realize that it effects more than just them! there are people who want them to stop and people who just want to be able to see them and want to see them make promises and keep them...but i guess thats just to good to be true cuz its never gunna happen...ever!! i guess people just dont think sometimes bcuz if they did maybe they would be like wow there are other people who care about me!!but..
apparently not! I am not really sure i wanna see him now cuz he lies to me and tells me everything will change but it never does.its like a circle he tells he is gunna change, then he doesnt, then he goes to jail and then he wants to see me AGAIN.. i just dont get it maybe its just me that doesnt understand but i sure hope not.
should i forgive him and see him........?
or
should i just tell him to stay out of my life.......?
i am really starting to hate school ALOT!
its like i cant have more than one good day in a week
and it really sucks bcuz it really effects me and when i am
around other people i am just really grumpy
i hate bad days and i really hate being adopted its so
fucking complicated..everything has to be so screwed up for me
no matter what...why do people screw up doing the same thing more than once
maybe if they werent so fucking dumb maybe they would realize that it effects more than just them! there are people who want them to stop and people who just want to be able to see them and want to see them make promises and keep them...but i guess thats just to good to be true cuz its never gunna happen...ever!! i guess people just dont think sometimes bcuz if they did maybe they would be like wow there are other people who care about me!!but..
apparently not! I am not really sure i wanna see him now cuz he lies to me and tells me everything will change but it never does.its like a circle he tells he is gunna change, then he doesnt, then he goes to jail and then he wants to see me AGAIN.. i just dont get it maybe its just me that doesnt understand but i sure hope not.
should i forgive him and see him........?
or
should i just tell him to stay out of my life.......?