Father's Day
Summer is in full swing and life seems to be a rollercoaster gone haywire. Ups and downs, twists and turns, starts and stops, it's pretty ridiculous.
My father has been back in the household and I am not happy about it. I have been neglecting the family and have pretty much detached myself from any events or social gathering with them. My mother is upset, my sister is confused, and my father is deathly afraid of me not liking him. I honestly can say that my conclusion to the problem is non-existant. I cannot do anything about them being together, their habits, or expressions.
I am going to the beach with Megan on Friday afternoon to catch Rise Against, Comeback Kid and Silverstein at HOB of Myrtle Beach and will be spending a few days at Harbor Lights during a Courtney side family reunion(something I am not looking forward to). I have a feeling my entire family will judge and ridicule me as they have the rest of my life, so why bother? I really shouldn't let it bother me, considering I see them practically once every two years, but hey, who wouldn't want to make a good impression.
Father's Day was unpleasant. I swallowed my pride and said the empty and downright meaningless words of "happy fathers day" halfway through the day to satisfy my mother. I told my mom about my eventual declaring of a major and she had the audacity to announce it to my grandparents, dad and sister at the dinner table. I told them I wanted to go into childrens physical therapy and they got all excited. Then I told them the information I had gathered on salary and they completely butchered it. I went to 3 different career building websites that my counselor gave me and got the facts and was completely shot down by my know it all grandparents. So much for proud, I guess.
I have been working out consistantly for the last 2 weeks and couldn't feel better about myself, which is great. My mood is better, my energy is high, and it feels great.
But friendships are confusing me at the moment. I almost feel as if I am Johnny Depp from the movie Blow. I feel that I have been blackballed a little bit. I feel as if I was the middle man in some cases and now I am not as needed as before on different people's behalfs. It could just be a phase, or an insecurity I have been picking up from my father's situation. Hopefully I am wrong.
Buffalo is only 8 days away. I am so ready to get up there and see my best friends. T-Kos, Grandma, Chelsea, and Christian...I hope they are ready, because God only knows how ready I am to finally get out of the Trail for a while again.
Hope everyone is staying safe and having fun this summer.
My father has been back in the household and I am not happy about it. I have been neglecting the family and have pretty much detached myself from any events or social gathering with them. My mother is upset, my sister is confused, and my father is deathly afraid of me not liking him. I honestly can say that my conclusion to the problem is non-existant. I cannot do anything about them being together, their habits, or expressions.
I am going to the beach with Megan on Friday afternoon to catch Rise Against, Comeback Kid and Silverstein at HOB of Myrtle Beach and will be spending a few days at Harbor Lights during a Courtney side family reunion(something I am not looking forward to). I have a feeling my entire family will judge and ridicule me as they have the rest of my life, so why bother? I really shouldn't let it bother me, considering I see them practically once every two years, but hey, who wouldn't want to make a good impression.
Father's Day was unpleasant. I swallowed my pride and said the empty and downright meaningless words of "happy fathers day" halfway through the day to satisfy my mother. I told my mom about my eventual declaring of a major and she had the audacity to announce it to my grandparents, dad and sister at the dinner table. I told them I wanted to go into childrens physical therapy and they got all excited. Then I told them the information I had gathered on salary and they completely butchered it. I went to 3 different career building websites that my counselor gave me and got the facts and was completely shot down by my know it all grandparents. So much for proud, I guess.
I have been working out consistantly for the last 2 weeks and couldn't feel better about myself, which is great. My mood is better, my energy is high, and it feels great.
But friendships are confusing me at the moment. I almost feel as if I am Johnny Depp from the movie Blow. I feel that I have been blackballed a little bit. I feel as if I was the middle man in some cases and now I am not as needed as before on different people's behalfs. It could just be a phase, or an insecurity I have been picking up from my father's situation. Hopefully I am wrong.
Buffalo is only 8 days away. I am so ready to get up there and see my best friends. T-Kos, Grandma, Chelsea, and Christian...I hope they are ready, because God only knows how ready I am to finally get out of the Trail for a while again.
Hope everyone is staying safe and having fun this summer.