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I like singing in church. I really do. It's powerful sometimes. I want to start going back to church. I feel bad that I don't go. I am not a full on believer, but I like going there and learning about religion and it's concepts. Seeing people who have so much faith in God and in Heaven is refreshing and makes me feel good about the world. It gives me hope and faith that everything will be ok.
When I sing with the other members of the church, I can feel how much they love the words they are singing, and it is inspiring. It's powerful to be in the center of a chorus that sings with feeling. Although, it's not the best singing in the world, it has deep feeling behind the words. The sing with their eyes along with their voices and it gives me chills.
There are lots of times when I wish I could believe in God as much as others. People who believe seem to have all the answers. They seem to be so sure about life and it's "tests". To me that's comforting.
I guess all I am saying is today I decided I wanted to go back to church, and that I really like singing for my church. Mostly, I think, because I am confused about what to believe and who to believe in. I want to be the best person I can be, and I think having faith will help me. Not even faith in God necesarily, but just faith in general.
Tomorrow I am singing at church in the Cantata if anyone wants to come see it. At 7, I think. It's beautiful and refreshing and powerful, well in my eyes anyway.
When I sing with the other members of the church, I can feel how much they love the words they are singing, and it is inspiring. It's powerful to be in the center of a chorus that sings with feeling. Although, it's not the best singing in the world, it has deep feeling behind the words. The sing with their eyes along with their voices and it gives me chills.
There are lots of times when I wish I could believe in God as much as others. People who believe seem to have all the answers. They seem to be so sure about life and it's "tests". To me that's comforting.
I guess all I am saying is today I decided I wanted to go back to church, and that I really like singing for my church. Mostly, I think, because I am confused about what to believe and who to believe in. I want to be the best person I can be, and I think having faith will help me. Not even faith in God necesarily, but just faith in general.
Tomorrow I am singing at church in the Cantata if anyone wants to come see it. At 7, I think. It's beautiful and refreshing and powerful, well in my eyes anyway.