Sorta sappy update.....
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I was just cleaning out some old things in my room and i came across a print out of old journal entries. I was young and stupid then so of course i printed them out, but I forgot how crazy things were. It interesting how things work out i guess. Either way its been almost two years since i've written in this thing, and since no one ever reads it (I hope) I might just start up again. The last time i wrote in this was when I saw Jake, but I thought I saw him sooner than two years. I guess time flies. Also Brain and i were trying to regain our friendship after a HUGE falling out. Its funny reading those entries because that lucky bastard should be kissing my feet for forgiving him. HAHA!
I turn 24 in a week and it's very weird for me to think about it. I use to be so excited for my birthdays, but i think i've learned and i keep forgetting its coming up. A lot has been going on with my family so i'm sure thats helping out. My great aunt Zosia died on Saturday. I really wish i was rich so i could go out there whenever i wanted especially. I've hit the age where people in my life are dying, my friends are getting married and having kids and I'm NOT there yet. I'm not even close and it scares me a little. I don't even know if thats what i want anymore. In the past relationship of course i talked about it, and really wanted it, but then one after another they started to fall apart for one reason or another; Mostly my hard to please personality. Who wants a selfishly deprived, egocentric money spending prude, caveman? Well that just about sums up most of my ex-boyfriends. Sure some of them had their good qualities, but I don't want to deal with the bad ones.
I quit good ol AMC and i know i'm better off...even if it doesn't feel like it right now. I had some really great memories there, and met a lot of great people who will stay my friends for a life time. As always the good come with the bad, and I am very glad i don't have to deal with the bad anymore. I'm sure in a few years i'll forget how bad the bad actually was just like other bad things i've forgotten. Its time for me to get out in the real world and get going on that part of my life. It should be an interesting new journey, and now that i've decided to write in this again it'll be fun to read.
I went to Poland and it turned out to be a great experience, but not what i expected. I think i needed a friend there with me to deal with that because family things hit me hard since all i have around is my mom. I'm glad i did it, and i'd do it again, but slightly differently. I did realize how great my friends are though. Some of them were able to pick me up with just an aim convo or e-mail. Along with being picky about my boyfriends I am also picky about my friends. If you wrong me, or something itches me the wrong way chances are i won't trust you with anything. I am really proud of my friends, and i've very lucky to have them.
and on that note, I will end this entry. Look forward to updating in a few days. :)
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I was just cleaning out some old things in my room and i came across a print out of old journal entries. I was young and stupid then so of course i printed them out, but I forgot how crazy things were. It interesting how things work out i guess. Either way its been almost two years since i've written in this thing, and since no one ever reads it (I hope) I might just start up again. The last time i wrote in this was when I saw Jake, but I thought I saw him sooner than two years. I guess time flies. Also Brain and i were trying to regain our friendship after a HUGE falling out. Its funny reading those entries because that lucky bastard should be kissing my feet for forgiving him. HAHA!
I turn 24 in a week and it's very weird for me to think about it. I use to be so excited for my birthdays, but i think i've learned and i keep forgetting its coming up. A lot has been going on with my family so i'm sure thats helping out. My great aunt Zosia died on Saturday. I really wish i was rich so i could go out there whenever i wanted especially. I've hit the age where people in my life are dying, my friends are getting married and having kids and I'm NOT there yet. I'm not even close and it scares me a little. I don't even know if thats what i want anymore. In the past relationship of course i talked about it, and really wanted it, but then one after another they started to fall apart for one reason or another; Mostly my hard to please personality. Who wants a selfishly deprived, egocentric money spending prude, caveman? Well that just about sums up most of my ex-boyfriends. Sure some of them had their good qualities, but I don't want to deal with the bad ones.
I quit good ol AMC and i know i'm better off...even if it doesn't feel like it right now. I had some really great memories there, and met a lot of great people who will stay my friends for a life time. As always the good come with the bad, and I am very glad i don't have to deal with the bad anymore. I'm sure in a few years i'll forget how bad the bad actually was just like other bad things i've forgotten. Its time for me to get out in the real world and get going on that part of my life. It should be an interesting new journey, and now that i've decided to write in this again it'll be fun to read.
I went to Poland and it turned out to be a great experience, but not what i expected. I think i needed a friend there with me to deal with that because family things hit me hard since all i have around is my mom. I'm glad i did it, and i'd do it again, but slightly differently. I did realize how great my friends are though. Some of them were able to pick me up with just an aim convo or e-mail. Along with being picky about my boyfriends I am also picky about my friends. If you wrong me, or something itches me the wrong way chances are i won't trust you with anything. I am really proud of my friends, and i've very lucky to have them.
and on that note, I will end this entry. Look forward to updating in a few days. :)