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Fuck the book.
It finally rained. I went for a run to the river and on the way it started down pouring. I have been feeling more free lately. Just little things like runs in the rain or stretching by the water, and definitely painting. I have a constant, I have control. I feel like I will be able to run my worries away. I love to wait for my lungs to scream for air before I slow down. I love pushing myself. Sitting by the river tonight, with the grass wet and the water lapping the single small rock that was in front of my was calming, it was perfect. I'm learning to not think. To just relax. I've only just started this what I plan to be nightly routine and yet the effects have been unbelievable. This is one of the first times in my life I have tried to not worry, or stress and I am finally pushing all of the negativity out of myself. I'm taking it day by day. There is no reason to bother worrying about anything but what is happening.
I refuse to let this get me down. I've dealt with it for far to many years, and I'm just not doing it anymore.
It finally rained. I went for a run to the river and on the way it started down pouring. I have been feeling more free lately. Just little things like runs in the rain or stretching by the water, and definitely painting. I have a constant, I have control. I feel like I will be able to run my worries away. I love to wait for my lungs to scream for air before I slow down. I love pushing myself. Sitting by the river tonight, with the grass wet and the water lapping the single small rock that was in front of my was calming, it was perfect. I'm learning to not think. To just relax. I've only just started this what I plan to be nightly routine and yet the effects have been unbelievable. This is one of the first times in my life I have tried to not worry, or stress and I am finally pushing all of the negativity out of myself. I'm taking it day by day. There is no reason to bother worrying about anything but what is happening.
I refuse to let this get me down. I've dealt with it for far to many years, and I'm just not doing it anymore.