One small step for....one giant step for FUTURE
I am sads a bit as I continue on this new career pursuit. I LOVE teaching. I mean like I struggle to see myself in any other arena doing the things I do. When I dream, it is about teaching students and making an impact that deviates a course all the way into the future. An uninspired course becomes a course of constant wonder. A destructive course becomes a course of healing and love. There are just so many things that happen in a classroom teaching in 1.5 hrs.
However, I am crazy excited and wondering over the next step. The next step is to return to school to get my Ph D in Chemistry. I never imagine this path because honestly, I am not all that smart. I am a hard worker but as time at college proved, your hard work does not necessarily generate the grades you need to be respectable in the field of choice. And for a long time, I wasn't proud of my ability to work hard. I shied away from those who said I was smart because I felt like I was faking something and somehow I tricked them. But God has given me thirty seven years to see exactly what an advantage I am over the biggest genius on the planet. I won't take it for granted. I won't assume I will do well just because it is something I am naturally gifted at. Cartoon and movies make light of the bad guy monologuing about his achievements and what he expects to happen just because he is this awesome bad guy and each time, he fails. He doesn't put the work in it and relies too much on innate talent. I'd be a terrifying bad guy because I wouldn't have time to explain myself for all the work I'd have to do to thwart those Scooby Doo kids. And I'd be good at it, minor accomplishments in badness would eventually become noticeable accomplishments and move on to terror filled moments of badness.
And that is my hope for getting my Ph D in Chem. To keep working so hard that I will have minor moments of achievement that will eventually become noticeable accomplishments and move on to inspiring filled moments of note. That is if they let me in. I took the GRE yesterday and scored a 156 in Verbal and 153 in Quantitative. That puts me at the 70th percentile, I think. Not enough to stand out....once again. Now it is on to the application fill out steps. I want to go to Georgia Institute of Technology for my Ph D (not because it is close but because they have an awesome biochemistry division). My back ups are Emory University, University of California in San Diego, New York University GSAS, and University of Northern Colorado. I already have a particular thing I would like to research so I am hoping I run across someone willing to buy in to the whole idea...of course it is medical.
Full circle, my medical pursuits have returned again. lol! I also have to take the subject test for the GRE in Chemistry so November/October is going to be crazy busy with studying. I mainly need to focus on Organic Chemistry.
However, I am crazy excited and wondering over the next step. The next step is to return to school to get my Ph D in Chemistry. I never imagine this path because honestly, I am not all that smart. I am a hard worker but as time at college proved, your hard work does not necessarily generate the grades you need to be respectable in the field of choice. And for a long time, I wasn't proud of my ability to work hard. I shied away from those who said I was smart because I felt like I was faking something and somehow I tricked them. But God has given me thirty seven years to see exactly what an advantage I am over the biggest genius on the planet. I won't take it for granted. I won't assume I will do well just because it is something I am naturally gifted at. Cartoon and movies make light of the bad guy monologuing about his achievements and what he expects to happen just because he is this awesome bad guy and each time, he fails. He doesn't put the work in it and relies too much on innate talent. I'd be a terrifying bad guy because I wouldn't have time to explain myself for all the work I'd have to do to thwart those Scooby Doo kids. And I'd be good at it, minor accomplishments in badness would eventually become noticeable accomplishments and move on to terror filled moments of badness.
And that is my hope for getting my Ph D in Chem. To keep working so hard that I will have minor moments of achievement that will eventually become noticeable accomplishments and move on to inspiring filled moments of note. That is if they let me in. I took the GRE yesterday and scored a 156 in Verbal and 153 in Quantitative. That puts me at the 70th percentile, I think. Not enough to stand out....once again. Now it is on to the application fill out steps. I want to go to Georgia Institute of Technology for my Ph D (not because it is close but because they have an awesome biochemistry division). My back ups are Emory University, University of California in San Diego, New York University GSAS, and University of Northern Colorado. I already have a particular thing I would like to research so I am hoping I run across someone willing to buy in to the whole idea...of course it is medical.
Full circle, my medical pursuits have returned again. lol! I also have to take the subject test for the GRE in Chemistry so November/October is going to be crazy busy with studying. I mainly need to focus on Organic Chemistry.