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The trip to Paris
So I can't even begin to describe the loveliness that is Paris. I spent a lot of time walking the city and enjoying the sites. It was a spectacular way to spend the New Year and Katherine was a great travel buddy. Sorry about Versaille but I did get a lot of "Luci minutes" to put up on YouTube, hopefully.
My favorite part? The walk from the Eiffel Tower area to Latin Quarters every day. It was beautiful, relaxing and so breathtaking. The french know how to make walking look good!
Oh and koshka_the_cat got so many phone numbers while in Paris. you go girl!
Calming My Attitude
So I have had an attitude situation for the last month. I didn't realize until after I got back from Paris and couldn't stand myself. I have no idea when it slipped in or what brought it on but I am putting me on a coffee cooler (my mom's term for something that will make you settle down fast). It just hasn't been shining much light being snippy, mean-spirited (no, not sarcastic) and even talking behind people's backs. I don't do that, I usually defend other people and here I am breaking them down. That is not how I want to be remembered. So I am working to improve how I speak to people and how I am seen by people.
The Coolest Director Ever!
I just want to say that I wish I did theater earlier in life. But, I feel so blessed to have such a wonderful director. He does work so much harder than needed and he is an excellent teacher. We hung out over his place sunday and watched "Sweeny Todd" the theatrical presentation of it with George Hearn and Angela Landsbury. I loved it!!! But I favored a character he thought was pure evil. Sure she was but still she was a heck of a lot of fun while she was around. And he spent the entire play "teaching" me about acting. ha! I get it but can I do it is the question? I see what he means about musicals have to be big in whatever emotion you are relaying. Seriously, they did somber and they did somber well in Sweeny Todd. I would think somber would be a quiet motion or a slight facial movement but the somber they did on the stage was so full of energy that anyone in the theater would know what was going on and be pulled into the story.
Theater
Stage managing rocks. I love it. I am going to hopefully stage manage "Something Funny Happened on the Way to Forum" in the spring. I also auditioned for the upcoming play, "To Kill A Mockingbird". The director cast me!!! I am Calpurnia. Oh my God, I can't wait...but at the same time? I want to go throw up. This is for real, not pieces of Shakespeare but a whole play with an overlying story arc and a very sincere message. I almost don't know what to do about accepting the role. I am going to accept but there is that small quiet voice saying "you were cast because you were one of the only two black women that auditioned". I know it isn't true but at the same time, I believe it. Oh well, anyhoo, my other theater buds that I hang out with and have played Halo 2 got roles as well. *squee* The read through is on Tuesday!
Oh and I have decided to help stage manage the production as Cal has a lot of off the stage time.
School
So we got a bit of a curve ball this week. An email stating that they need to excess 8.5 teacher's from the school due to decreasing enrollment. So this week I had to decide what to do but it is not finalized. Apparently we will know the final tally on Friday. But here is the deal, if no one volunteers to be excessed and the principal releases based on service computation date (SCD) and need, I will not make the cut. I should be sad about that but at the same time, I prayed to God this year about what to do concerning school. It was so hard last year and I never want to feel that way again. If I am to leave, we have talked and I know the next step. If He feels like that step needs to be different, I can listen. I am very zen about this now. I panicked for a moment today though because at the dept meeting these two teachers were being awful. I am not exaggerating. One was overall just a rude persona but the other seem to take my presence as a personal affront. I have not done anything to her though I do deserve it a bit for talking behind her back about how she taught. But still, she didn't know and attacked me and purposefully made me feel like I am unnecessary and unwanted and if she hadn't volunteered Principal D said he was going to have to release me. I just froze when she said that because I never thought my decision to leave here would be by force and that I meant so little to the school. I truly was upset and talked to my dept chair afterwards who helped set my mind at ease and then I went back to the classroom and got the most wonderful email from a parent letting me know how much they appreciate me. I am not being conceited, the parents wouldn't want me to leave this school. They'd make sure of it. I feel bad about knowing next year would be my last year anyway but at least I know I am wanted. It hurt to think I wasn't...and stupid of me to even think that.
Prayer
Prayer group rocked tonight! pmgoose we really prayed for you tonight. I hope you feel some German love from afar! Love you girl!
So I can't even begin to describe the loveliness that is Paris. I spent a lot of time walking the city and enjoying the sites. It was a spectacular way to spend the New Year and Katherine was a great travel buddy. Sorry about Versaille but I did get a lot of "Luci minutes" to put up on YouTube, hopefully.
My favorite part? The walk from the Eiffel Tower area to Latin Quarters every day. It was beautiful, relaxing and so breathtaking. The french know how to make walking look good!
Oh and koshka_the_cat got so many phone numbers while in Paris. you go girl!
Calming My Attitude
So I have had an attitude situation for the last month. I didn't realize until after I got back from Paris and couldn't stand myself. I have no idea when it slipped in or what brought it on but I am putting me on a coffee cooler (my mom's term for something that will make you settle down fast). It just hasn't been shining much light being snippy, mean-spirited (no, not sarcastic) and even talking behind people's backs. I don't do that, I usually defend other people and here I am breaking them down. That is not how I want to be remembered. So I am working to improve how I speak to people and how I am seen by people.
The Coolest Director Ever!
I just want to say that I wish I did theater earlier in life. But, I feel so blessed to have such a wonderful director. He does work so much harder than needed and he is an excellent teacher. We hung out over his place sunday and watched "Sweeny Todd" the theatrical presentation of it with George Hearn and Angela Landsbury. I loved it!!! But I favored a character he thought was pure evil. Sure she was but still she was a heck of a lot of fun while she was around. And he spent the entire play "teaching" me about acting. ha! I get it but can I do it is the question? I see what he means about musicals have to be big in whatever emotion you are relaying. Seriously, they did somber and they did somber well in Sweeny Todd. I would think somber would be a quiet motion or a slight facial movement but the somber they did on the stage was so full of energy that anyone in the theater would know what was going on and be pulled into the story.
Theater
Stage managing rocks. I love it. I am going to hopefully stage manage "Something Funny Happened on the Way to Forum" in the spring. I also auditioned for the upcoming play, "To Kill A Mockingbird". The director cast me!!! I am Calpurnia. Oh my God, I can't wait...but at the same time? I want to go throw up. This is for real, not pieces of Shakespeare but a whole play with an overlying story arc and a very sincere message. I almost don't know what to do about accepting the role. I am going to accept but there is that small quiet voice saying "you were cast because you were one of the only two black women that auditioned". I know it isn't true but at the same time, I believe it. Oh well, anyhoo, my other theater buds that I hang out with and have played Halo 2 got roles as well. *squee* The read through is on Tuesday!
Oh and I have decided to help stage manage the production as Cal has a lot of off the stage time.
School
So we got a bit of a curve ball this week. An email stating that they need to excess 8.5 teacher's from the school due to decreasing enrollment. So this week I had to decide what to do but it is not finalized. Apparently we will know the final tally on Friday. But here is the deal, if no one volunteers to be excessed and the principal releases based on service computation date (SCD) and need, I will not make the cut. I should be sad about that but at the same time, I prayed to God this year about what to do concerning school. It was so hard last year and I never want to feel that way again. If I am to leave, we have talked and I know the next step. If He feels like that step needs to be different, I can listen. I am very zen about this now. I panicked for a moment today though because at the dept meeting these two teachers were being awful. I am not exaggerating. One was overall just a rude persona but the other seem to take my presence as a personal affront. I have not done anything to her though I do deserve it a bit for talking behind her back about how she taught. But still, she didn't know and attacked me and purposefully made me feel like I am unnecessary and unwanted and if she hadn't volunteered Principal D said he was going to have to release me. I just froze when she said that because I never thought my decision to leave here would be by force and that I meant so little to the school. I truly was upset and talked to my dept chair afterwards who helped set my mind at ease and then I went back to the classroom and got the most wonderful email from a parent letting me know how much they appreciate me. I am not being conceited, the parents wouldn't want me to leave this school. They'd make sure of it. I feel bad about knowing next year would be my last year anyway but at least I know I am wanted. It hurt to think I wasn't...and stupid of me to even think that.
Prayer
Prayer group rocked tonight! pmgoose we really prayed for you tonight. I hope you feel some German love from afar! Love you girl!