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[tendollarhigh]

sorry its been a while
my computer completely crashed
and i lost everything
all of my work and pictures and music and programs
but the thing is: i dont really care that much
which i think is a problem. because i probably should.
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anyway. update?
my play, ( ) is on sunday
it should be really beautiful
i cant wait to see how it turns out
and what people think about it.
a lot of people wont understand,
but for those 10 people that really love it
it will be so worth it.
and its so worth it jsut for me.
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also i thought/tried the dating thing
but i really just realized i need to stop kidding myself
and just take care of me
worry about myself for a while
be alone.
give myself to myself for once.
wow. amazing. alone!
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my parents are visiting in two weeks
i cant wait