Can't Take Her Anywhere
Well, after doing something really stupid Friday night that I'd rather not talk about, and then having just completely confusing conversations with a couple of different guys I like, resulting in my having no idea where I stand with at least four people in my life (or kinda-maybe in my life) right now, I am getting to the point where I think I just can't take myself anyplace because I never know what I'll do or what I'll say. No matter that one of these four people is sooooo messed up about sex and women that probably it wasn't me anyway, it was his own paranoias and sex-fear and...whatever, I just got this weird fucking letter from him and can't tell if he still wants to hang out but not have sex (HE brought it up, not me) or if he wants me to back off.
He's probably going to just drive me crazy if I even hang with him anyway, but he's so fine...that could be a problem too, considering the "no sex" thing. Didn't I have this same problem hanging out with an ex and wanting sex and he didn't and then the whole thing blew up in my face over a fucking poem? I think I remember something like that. Happened last spring.
Probably shouldn't respond to the letter and just...what? See what happens? RUN?
Whatever
He's probably going to just drive me crazy if I even hang with him anyway, but he's so fine...that could be a problem too, considering the "no sex" thing. Didn't I have this same problem hanging out with an ex and wanting sex and he didn't and then the whole thing blew up in my face over a fucking poem? I think I remember something like that. Happened last spring.
Probably shouldn't respond to the letter and just...what? See what happens? RUN?
Whatever