Dec 21, 2005 23:19
I was in my favorite cafe once and this guy came in and told the owner. "Never argue with a fool. The people listening won't be able to tell the difference". I've been trying to practice that. I completely forgot that today in a chat-room. This girl (I was told she's really young) butted into an argument I was having with another fool (or maybe I was the fool there; it's hard to know sometimes), and started calling me a drama queen (true, but triggering), a two-bit whore (Well, I don't do actual sex, and nobody goes for two bits anymore anyway - that's twenty-five cents), and a coke fiend who was obviously coked out of my mind (completely untrue).
So I'm pretty sure nobody witnessing this whole thing could think much more than that all three of us must be complete idiots, and I've probably ruined my rep on that board (not that it really matters all that much).
The upshot of all this was - I was in tears. It's fucking ridiculous to get so upset by some assholes in chat that I don't even know, but there it was. I don't think I want to go on that board anymore. Too many assholes, and I really have trouble with people who are abusive. I try not to be abusive on LJ or TRIBE, but there's something about that particular board (I know what it is, but don't really feel comfortable going into it) that attracts rude, belittling people. I'm feeling really sad and vulnerable right now. I am way too sensitive. It's way too easy for me to feel hurt by people even if I don't know them. I like LJ because I only got attacked once in the whole however many years I've been on it. I like TRIBE because things don't usually get that personal anyway. I should stick with the places I feel comfortable.