I'll hold on to tonite... til the moonlite fades from ur eyes...
If I could Find you now Things would get better.... we could leave this town and run forever... Let your waves crash down on me and take me away.....
ok... now that im done with that... I have had that song stuck in my head since 2nd period!!! thanks to caitlyn! ok well lets see here... its only tuesday... that sux monkey balls.... dude im so ready for school to be out! u have nooooo idea... like i desperately need it! real bad! like its crazy... i dunno im thinking about things lately and i don't no what to do nemore... like i so bad am dying to get wasted off my ass man... and just relax and have the time of my life... cause u see im sick of it... im sick of people be stupid and like immature... dude sum times i wonder what ive done to deserve this freshmen year... everyone else said theirs rocked yeah well mine sucked ass. no joke.
today was one of those days that didn't really suck... like i had a really good day and was in a real good mood... but it just makes you wanna cry... mayb it was one of those things where i was so pissed i was like just so happy! margie knows what im talkin about... but normally i realize when its that but mayb its gettin to the point where i don't nemore.... I dunno but sumthings like hidden in me right now... and i don't even no what it is... like sumthings wrong or sumthings going to go wrong and things have been wrong and i ... i ... just don't no... im so confused again.... and like im sittin here wondering y i wake up everyday... cause there seriously is no reason... i have nothing goin for me... nothing at all... no one to see in the day... no one that i wanna talk to .... nothing real important to do... just people i want to avoid and not talk to... and things i just don't want to do... and issues i don't want to deal with.... but its so weird theres sumthing like forcing me not to be suicidal cause i think about it and then like sumthings just all like no alysha u have to do this... i dunno its freaky... its almost like i don't have the time to kill myself or sumthing... cause ill be like ok lets go slit my wrists and then im like shit if i don't clean my room my moms gonna kill me! wtf!? im so weird...im sittin here laughing... omg now im all hyper and i feel the urge to go clean my room! oh wow... sum1 help me... my dads sittin here freakin out cause like sum1 keeps calling and hes on the phone and the phone hes on doesn't have caller id so like hes like gosh tell her to stop callin! im like dude... im not talkin to neone on here! and hes like trying to look at the other phone to see who called... omg my dad... hes so funny... and then all of a sudden my moms all like make sure the doors locked! im sittin there talkin to her about the phone situation and shes like make sure the doors locked! im like wtf!!! lmao oh wow... ohk! I think im out... cause like i dunno... im so weird! bye!
~I don't wanna be nething other than what ive been tryin to be lately~