11:18:05
I have found myself eating less and less as the days pass by. It is my honest opinion that this anorectic behavior is caused by my incessant need to schedule myself and to work. I remember back at Chapel Hill during my freshman year having the problem of eating only two to four times a week which had rendered me incredibly thin. I decided that work and focus was more important than eating as if I were some training samurai (or perhaps an ascetic monk?). The problem is in college, besides running from class to class and around campus, because for some reason walking was below me as was walking the standard travel paths intended us, I only did t'ai chi for exercise. Now I do alot of Taekwondo and find myself feeling light headed after long periods of exercise. Protein deficiency, maybe? Also, I have been awfully tired lately. It is getting harder and harder to function with the limited amount of sleep I have been receiving. It is irresponsible and undisciplined of me to take such poor care of myself. I should be more considerate of myself.
The last couple of nights had been beautiful. I can honestly say that I have been too distracted by "important" things to notice exactly how nice the sky has been. Near to full moon, plenty of stars (at least for a city sky), real nice weather. It actually came to my attention while I was walking the dog and thinking to myself. Where I walk the dog is behind a bunch of houses that usually have back porch lights on but that night there were none on. I questioned why there were no lights thinking it a little queer but that was interupted when I thought to ask myself why I could see so plainly despite the lack of light. I look up and lo and behold, a gorgeous moon. That made me feel great and I have been feeding off of residual good feeling since then.