Emo-ised
"I laugh a lot so my friends dont know" - Everclear
Okay, right off the bat, I know that this entry is really stupid and adolescent and i'm not using it to call attention to myself. I just need to get it down cause its on my mind and it wont leave me alone.
In fact, that word can pretty much sum up how im feeling: alone. I'm just getting tired of being alone. Yeah, I know it may be selfish since everyone else goes through this shit. I'm just getting aggrivated that I'm keeping it up inside. I'm never one to really complain, so it may seem out of character, but...whatever
I've just been feeling lonely. The more and more I think about it, I just miss old relationships. It's just a stream of regrets going through my mind. I guess thats why I should be going to bed. I know I keep telling people I cant wait to go to Rutgers. It's true, I really am psyched to be going there, but I guess in a way, it's me saying, "I cant wait to get away from my angsty high school problems". I'm just tired of walking around and having my mind being flooded with memories; both the good and the bad ones irritate me. I guess when I leave it'll be like the song by the Get Up Kids, "Out of sight, out of mind, out of reach. Start over."
Seeing couples just pisses me off. It just gets me really frustrated and jealous, and I hate when I get that because its total self-absorbed to be like that. I know it must have happened to other people when i was with brittany, but....fuck.
Time to get my shit together. I'd better be going to bed. I cant believe I actually am gonna post this.
Okay, right off the bat, I know that this entry is really stupid and adolescent and i'm not using it to call attention to myself. I just need to get it down cause its on my mind and it wont leave me alone.
In fact, that word can pretty much sum up how im feeling: alone. I'm just getting tired of being alone. Yeah, I know it may be selfish since everyone else goes through this shit. I'm just getting aggrivated that I'm keeping it up inside. I'm never one to really complain, so it may seem out of character, but...whatever
I've just been feeling lonely. The more and more I think about it, I just miss old relationships. It's just a stream of regrets going through my mind. I guess thats why I should be going to bed. I know I keep telling people I cant wait to go to Rutgers. It's true, I really am psyched to be going there, but I guess in a way, it's me saying, "I cant wait to get away from my angsty high school problems". I'm just tired of walking around and having my mind being flooded with memories; both the good and the bad ones irritate me. I guess when I leave it'll be like the song by the Get Up Kids, "Out of sight, out of mind, out of reach. Start over."
Seeing couples just pisses me off. It just gets me really frustrated and jealous, and I hate when I get that because its total self-absorbed to be like that. I know it must have happened to other people when i was with brittany, but....fuck.
Time to get my shit together. I'd better be going to bed. I cant believe I actually am gonna post this.