way to much on my mind
lately ive had alot on my mind. between a certain girl to school to homework to me feeling sick to having to study for sats on saturday. its all so much i cant concentrate on anything. my minds moving so fast but theres always only one thing on it. first thing when i wake up last thing i think about before i go to sleep. always there and this one thing makes me so happy but at the same time puts me in a terrible mood where i annalyze every single possibility in every single situation. lately i dont feel like im doing anything right. i feel like im letting those who i truely care about down, i feel like people are telling me things and i im not hearing it everythings so complicated i cant keep anyone thing on my mind for to long without that one particular thing popping into my head non stop. i feel like im letting tiny insignifigant things get the best of me and that the things i care about are slipping through my fingers one by one.
but anyways apparently my secret is out about the infamous girl i like lol yeah its nikole. i like her alot and when i say alot i emphasize alot quite a bit i dunno the deal with this all with me things have a way of screwing up but i hope things are okay because regardless i love the girl to death and always want to be extremly good friends with her. so yeah she knows i like her now you all do :-\ but none of you matter only her so yeah balls in her court persay. yeah this post is longer than just about any post ive ever made so read it cuz its important to me cuz i had trouble writing this cuz i suck at expressing my feelings and stuff
<3 jason