Dec 19, 2010 09:08
It's weird seeing your friends fight. It's like seeing them drunk when you know they shouldn't be. (Taking away the bottle's useless because they're already more than halfway gone and their sense has run away with them.)
The thing is, as far as definitions go, you're really not a part of it. Your only business is to watch, talk down, and wish them luck. It's the same thing, being around someone sad. Falling apart isn't a good look on anyone and it's painful to watch people become the simplest version of themselves, eaten whole by what they want. By the things they need.
I don't really have anything to say about this except it's left me feeling bereft and oddly out of step. I know how it feels to be in a fight, and I know how it is to be sad. But it's a completely different experience being on the other side of all those emotions, knowing how they fit into everything and being stuck with nothing but knowledge.