yes, mellow.
like i just told brian, im in a weird mood. im not really sure how to describe it. i think it pms.
i feel sad;
happy;
tired;
awake;
cold;
sick;
sore;
relaxed... not really all at once, but randomly. its weird. and my shoulders twitching.
i guess im just in a chilling mood.
kinda mellow.
carbon leaf is cool.
i want it to be tomorrow, so that i can read my horoscope. i think ill do a tarot reading tonight. havent done that in a long time, and that usually calms my nerves. and gives me something to fall back on.
tarot is a weird thing with me...
i dont necessarily think that its results are true, but theyre helpful none-the-less. and they do usually end up being right-on. now, granted i could just be preping my mind and body to do what its said, but usually my readings have nothing to do with me, but with other people. or at least involving someone else. its good therepy. makes me calm. i usually meditate before hand, so im relaxed. sometimes i have music. always low lights, more relaxing. feel kind of cheesy, but once i get into it, i forget about everything else. everything ever.
the hardest part is going through the question. unless ive done a really long meditation, its sometimes hard to concentrate on the question or subject. it takes a few minutes to focus myself.
brian thinks its funny... :(
stupid brian, making me pay attention to my conscience. i wanna get laid. things better turn out positively.
ten minutes til i can read my horoscope
out of touch- out of time
yea dashboard.
good stupid sad love songs.
grrr. im such a girl sometimes.
i hate thinking of myself as a girl
you know, when i was younger, like 12, or 11...
i used to think that guys- honest to god- had no real feelings. like, they did, but werent really able to fall in love, or really care about a girl like that. isnt that horrible? shit- who knows where i got that from. but i dont like that. i dont like thinking of people as male or female, just people. sometimes i get confused though. i dont know- that sounds weird. fuck-- i hate this writing shit- i feel so inclined to be honest.
okay, i swear its the pms. or maybe the sad songs... i hate this sad-happy shit. i like being happy. i like ignoring stupid problems. they arent worth my time... i dont know why i cant just get rid of them. and whenever i cry before bed, my eyes are all puffy in the mornings, and its dumb.
i have no idea what im feeling, or thinking, and it sucks. grrrrr
well, time to check my horoscope...
'Get a birds eye view of your current situation under Leo Moon. You are flying high and success is almost guaranteed if you stay on course. Dont pour salt on a relatives old wounds. Host a casual party tonight.'
what dumb horoscope.
i dont know what to make of it yet.
im off
"your mellow tone-the stepping stone-twiddle away to get me home"
i feel sad;
happy;
tired;
awake;
cold;
sick;
sore;
relaxed... not really all at once, but randomly. its weird. and my shoulders twitching.
i guess im just in a chilling mood.
kinda mellow.
carbon leaf is cool.
i want it to be tomorrow, so that i can read my horoscope. i think ill do a tarot reading tonight. havent done that in a long time, and that usually calms my nerves. and gives me something to fall back on.
tarot is a weird thing with me...
i dont necessarily think that its results are true, but theyre helpful none-the-less. and they do usually end up being right-on. now, granted i could just be preping my mind and body to do what its said, but usually my readings have nothing to do with me, but with other people. or at least involving someone else. its good therepy. makes me calm. i usually meditate before hand, so im relaxed. sometimes i have music. always low lights, more relaxing. feel kind of cheesy, but once i get into it, i forget about everything else. everything ever.
the hardest part is going through the question. unless ive done a really long meditation, its sometimes hard to concentrate on the question or subject. it takes a few minutes to focus myself.
brian thinks its funny... :(
stupid brian, making me pay attention to my conscience. i wanna get laid. things better turn out positively.
ten minutes til i can read my horoscope
out of touch- out of time
yea dashboard.
good stupid sad love songs.
grrr. im such a girl sometimes.
i hate thinking of myself as a girl
you know, when i was younger, like 12, or 11...
i used to think that guys- honest to god- had no real feelings. like, they did, but werent really able to fall in love, or really care about a girl like that. isnt that horrible? shit- who knows where i got that from. but i dont like that. i dont like thinking of people as male or female, just people. sometimes i get confused though. i dont know- that sounds weird. fuck-- i hate this writing shit- i feel so inclined to be honest.
okay, i swear its the pms. or maybe the sad songs... i hate this sad-happy shit. i like being happy. i like ignoring stupid problems. they arent worth my time... i dont know why i cant just get rid of them. and whenever i cry before bed, my eyes are all puffy in the mornings, and its dumb.
i have no idea what im feeling, or thinking, and it sucks. grrrrr
well, time to check my horoscope...
'Get a birds eye view of your current situation under Leo Moon. You are flying high and success is almost guaranteed if you stay on course. Dont pour salt on a relatives old wounds. Host a casual party tonight.'
what dumb horoscope.
i dont know what to make of it yet.
im off
"your mellow tone-the stepping stone-twiddle away to get me home"