It has been ages. I think I have this as a subject for most of my posts.
My life has become completely different. I am somewhat scared of what the future may hold, but I will not back down. Cannot back down. I will do what I want, when I want, and how I want. I have met a wonderful boy, and said goodbye to my old other half. Leaving Tom was the hardest (but best) decision I have ever made. After being choked and thrown around on my birthday, I cannot believe I went back to him and let him do it to me again. I will never ever forgive him for what he did 3 Wednesdays ago. I don't care what anyone says. You obviously don't love someone if you are able to find it in your heart or body or mind or whatever to lay a hand on them out of anything but love. And that is exactly what he did. Choked me, threw me against my car, grabbed my wrists and shoulders and arms hard enough to give me fingerprint bruises, and then had the nerve to tell my own mother that he did not touch me. What sickens me the most is that earlier that day I begged him not to drink too much. Unfortunately, even when Tom is "quitting drinking", he cannot stop. A little advice to all the girls who are with alcoholic boyfriends... BE CAREFUL. They can turn at the drop of a hat, and not remember it in the morning. I recently spoke to Tom and he told me he honestly didn't remember what happened that night. He drank about 4 fifths of alcohol, tons of beer, and a bottle of wine. I really don't even care all that much, it just makes me sad. Tom has so much potential to be an amazing person, but he lets that bottle of alcohol control his every move.
However, Aaron. Aaron is the sweetest person I have ever met in my whole life. He is intelligent, hard working, kindhearted, and hilarious. I cannot wait to start a future with this boy. He is one of the most attractive boys I have ever met in my whole life to. He opens doors, pulls out chairs, pays for dinner, and looks at me with the prettiest blue eyes ever. When he looks at me, it feels like he is looking deep into my soul. It feels like he sees the real me. And I love it. I love everything about it. The first night we hung out together, it was if we had been together for years. I feel like he knows everything about me, and I know everything about him. I love the fact that he is so driven with work. I love to be with a man who has goals. It makes me so happy to know that he knows what he wants out of life. It gives me more motivation to follow my goals. I really can't wait for the future.
I am going to try and update this more often. I have a paper journal now though so it is a little bit difficult to think of things to say in both journals, haha.
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However, Aaron. Aaron is the sweetest person I have ever met in my whole life. He is intelligent, hard working, kindhearted, and hilarious. I cannot wait to start a future with this boy. He is one of the most attractive boys I have ever met in my whole life to. He opens doors, pulls out chairs, pays for dinner, and looks at me with the prettiest blue eyes ever. When he looks at me, it feels like he is looking deep into my soul. It feels like he sees the real me. And I love it. I love everything about it. The first night we hung out together, it was if we had been together for years. I feel like he knows everything about me, and I know everything about him. I love the fact that he is so driven with work. I love to be with a man who has goals. It makes me so happy to know that he knows what he wants out of life. It gives me more motivation to follow my goals. I really can't wait for the future.
I am going to try and update this more often. I have a paper journal now though so it is a little bit difficult to think of things to say in both journals, haha.
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