Simple Affection 05.
Title: Simple Affection
Chapters: 5/?
Genre: Angst, Romance
Rating: Pg-13 to NC-17
Pairings: Jaeho, Jaemin, Yoosu
Summary: Kim Jae Joong was tired of waiting. Waiting for a guy that would never love him back...or so he thought. Just when he was about to move on with a new found love, he finds himself being pulled back by his former crush. Or did he really forget him?
A/N: I know the summary doesn't sound as good, or the first chapter wasn't as amazing. But I want to say thank you to those who had really enjoyed it. It makes me happy ;D For my next fic, it'll have more detail and description.
I'm also very sorry for the late update. I was having a bit of a writers block...and I was really busy. The teachers have all tried to give us welcome back to school test. Which is not fun at all.
Anddd, I'm really sorry if this chapter is bad...and what you didn't expect. If you want, I could retype this chapter out. Just give me a shout! Anyways...enjoy ;D
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Chapter 5
It was so obvious. They had done none of this.
Raising his eye brows, Jae Joong stared at the slice of pizza in front of him. This was definitly not a creation by the mastermind themselves. The melting cheese with it's precise position over the whole slice. The perfect roundness of each pepperoni...all amounted equally to each person. The good aroma filled with spices in the thick red sauce.
Smelled like Pizza Hut.
Moving his eyes carefully, he looked at the three who had supposingly created the pizza.
Changmin loved to eat. But cooking? Not a chance.
Yunho. Disaster. You didn't even have to think about it.
Yoochun. If he couldn't keep his little dolphin happy, he as sure as hell couldn't make a pizza. You can scratch him off the list.
Looking at their grinning faces, Jae Joong just sighed to himself before picking up his slice of pizza.
As long it was food. And he didn't get killed. Jae Joong wouldn't mind. Taking a bite, he savoured the flavour before starting to chew. And then swallowing up the cheesy mess.
Taking another bite, he accidently smeared the side of the pizza against the side of his mouth. Quickly chewing and swallowing with his mouth closed, he flicked out his tongue, hoping to lick off the red wet stain quickly.
Feeling that his attempt was useless, Jae Joong stuck his tongue back in his mouth before dropping his slice of pizza. Slowly reaching across the table for a napkin, he suddenly froze when he felt a warm tongue on his skin.
5 seconds.
Finally, the tongue was gone... scratch that. It was back again.
10 seconds.
20 seconds.
Yanking his face back, Jae Joong wiped the wet traces of saliva where the sauce stain was before staring in horror at the person in front of him.
"YAH!" Jae Joong hissed out quietly as he came face to face with Yunho. Steaking glances at his other friends, he noticed that none of them were paying attention to them. Not even Changmin who was getting into a heated arguement with Yoochun and Junsu about a video game.
"Can't I even help out a friend in need?" Yunho asked darkly as his eyes never wavered against Jae Joong's.
What the hell was wrong with Yunho these days.
Shrinking back into his chair, he gazed at the half eaten pizza on his plate.
Forcing his eyes to not look at Yunho, he nervously started to clamp and un-clamp his hands. Maybe if he ignored him long enough, Yunho would stop staring at him. And the licking incident would just be forgotten.
"Look at me Jae Joong."
...
"Stop it!" He whispered quietly as he felt Yunho's hand on his leg.
Twisting abit, Jae Joong pulled his leg away from Yunho before letting his back face Yunho completly. The guy was getting on his nerves.
You know you just didn't want him to know how much you liked his hand on your leg.
When are you ever going to leave me alone?
Never.
With his heart pounding faster then normal, Jae Joong couldn't stop the tears that were beginning to well in his eyes. It was already hard with Yunho rejecting him.
I mean...it would've been better if Jae Joong was a girl. It probably wouldn't have hurt as much...or as embarrassing.
Guy rejecting girl was normal.
Guy rejecting guy was-...he couldn't finish the sentence.
And now what?
And now? Jae Joong honestly didn't know what Yunho wanted to do with him.
It was like the guy was starting to have split personalities. First, he was like his best friend. Then, he would ignore him like a stranger. And after that, he would say the meanest thing and give him a bruise or two. And now? He was acting like he should care for him when Jae Joong knew he didn't!
What did Yunho want?
Jae Joong confessed. He didn't accept. Jae Joong moves on with a potential guy who could be the one. And just makes him feel happy and forget. Yunho? He's stepping on his tail like he has the right to.
But the truth was...Jae Joong wasn't annoyed. He wasn't angry with Yunho. He was scared. What if he started to like Yunho again? Okay..cancel that one out. He had never stopped caring for Yunho...but what would happen when he wants Yunho to be his world?
Then would he go around and hurt him again? But then again...Yunho never said he had actually liked him in the first place.
What the hell are you thinking about Kim Jae Joong?
He didn't know. If he had to say it himself. He was probably making everything logical by saying that Yunho was in love with him. When Yunho didn't say anything like that...or showed any signs.
Except for that weird conversation...and the licking just now.
Kim Jae Joong! Snap out of it!
But it didn't seem like he was going to...because his vision was getting very blurry...and it wasn't because of the tears in his eyes. Come to think of it...he didn't feel very good. His face was getting hotter by the minute, and it seemed like there were black dots every where.
"Jae Joong ah," He heard Yunho cry out softly.
"G-go away." Jae Joong slurred as he fell to his left, right against Changmin who seemed to have stopped talking to Yoochun and Junsu.
"Hyung! His face is so pale." Junsu said instantly as his eyes came into contact with Jae Joongs limp body.
Turning his face a bit, he tried to sit up properly...but failed as he fell into Changmin's lap, his head resting against the warm leg.
Squinting his eyes, he felt like he could no longer keep them open anymore.
"Joongie ah, are you okay?" Changmin asked gently as his cool hand was against Jae Joong's forehead.
Before closing his eyes completly, the last thing he saw was Yunho's peircing gaze against his. Both holding concern...and something else. Anger? He wasn't sure. But...- not the time to think right now Kim Jae Joong. It's not like I'm going to die-...on a second thought...maybe I'll just rest my head a bit.
"-Changmin," He whispered ever so softly as he felt Changmin's hand leave his forehead.
"What is it?" Changmin asked softly as his hand was moving against his hair, stroking him slowly.
"Your hand," Jae Joong murmured as Changmin's hand came back to his forehead. "it feels good."
And just before he blacked out, he heard Changmin mutter out to the others, "He's burning up."
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Yunho couldn't sleep.
He didn't know what was wrong with him lately.
But atleast he knew the cause of the problem. Kim Jae Joong.
Yunho knew he should've been happy. Ever since Jae Joong had confessed to him, he had been in turmoil. But once he found out that Jae Joong was going out with Changmin...he thought that...maybe everything would be fine again. Yunho wouldn't have to ignore Jae Joong...and...and they could just go back to being friends.
Ha. What a dream that would be.
It didn't turn out that way...unfortunately for him. He couldn't take his eyes off them. Their smiling faces. Their held hands. The way Jae Joong was smiling at Changmin. The smile that Yunho had thought was reserved for him only.
But why did he feel that way? Was he jealous? He shouldn't be. Jung Yunho shouldn't be jealous...but he sure felt that way.
It surprised him actually...how every body in the school had accepted the couple so graciously. He would've thought that there would be a mass booing or something like that...how kiddish. Nothing like that had happen.
Everything had just went as they normally did.
Squirming beneath his covers, Yunho thought bitterly...if only he didn't have to feel this way. He didn't even know what he wanted actually.
Yunho just felt that...every touch, every glance Jae Joong gave to Changmin. He would want to punch Changmin until he couldn't breathe...or run away with Jae Joong and yell at him until he cried at his feet. Yunho didn't want to feel this way. To feel like he had to hurt other people...but he felt that his emotions were taking over.
Unable to sleep anymore, Yunho sat up quickly. He didn't want to think anymore...if he did...his mind might've exploded. Glancing around in the dark living room, Yunho cursed Yoochun for making the three of them sleep there. Not only was it cramped with limited space...Jae Joong and Changmin were there.
Most of Yoochun's furniture had taken up the place...and the conceited bastard wouldn't let one of them sleep on the couch because the couch might've got wrinkles. Reminding himself to kill Yoochun tomorrow, Yunho averted his eyes to his left.
Where Jae Joong was sleeping...between him and Changmin. He couldn't help but admit...that he had wanted to sleep close to Jae Joong. For what reasons? He didn't know. Maybe because he had slept with him many times before...when they were younger. But still...he knew that whatever the reason was...it wasn't that.
Making sure that Changmin was still sound asleep, he made his way closer to Jae Joong.
The fever had made him look weary, but his skin was still as pale and smooth as ever. The soft pink lips...oh so kissable. Whatever harboured feelings he had felt before...was stilled for the moment. Or gone? Who knows. But right now...all he could see was Jae Joong.
Raising his hand, Yunho stroke the soft cheek before clasping Jae Joongs hand in his. His hand was warm and smooth. Bringing Jae Joong's hand to his mouth, Yunho gave a small kiss before letting it back down. Yunho was feeling delusional. And maybe sleep was the best thing now.
Taking one last glance at Jae Joong, Yunho started to move quietly back to his spot...but froze when he felt Jae Joong's hand on his. Shit. Was he awake the whole time? How would he explain to him?
"Oh sorry Jae Joong. I'm sorry for treating you the way I did for these past months...but...I really didn't know what was going on with me. Everything just felt...so weird. But when I kissed your hand. It seemed like...those problems disappeared. Even for the slightest moment. You made me forget."
"Is it possible for you to forgive me? To tell me that it's okay between us? Maybe I was wrong to have rejected you...to tell you the truth. I've actually...liked you. A lot. Even from before...before you confessed. Is that wrong?"
"All I'm saying is that...I had felt scared. Insecure. Whatever you call it. I didn't know what I would do if my parents found out. If the whole school found out...if the whole world found out! But now I know that...if I have you here with me...then that's okay. I'm sorry for gripping you so hard...I'm sorry for making you feel hurt. I'm sorry for everything that I've done...to made you feel...bad."
"I didn't mean it. Not one single thing. Please...can you forgive me?
"Urfgh-dfsa," Jae Joong gurgled out before pulling Yunho down forcefully by the hand, making him fall against the sleeping young man. Almost crushing him.
Gasping, Yunho felt his face heat up. Why the hell would he thought of saying those sappy words to Jae Joong? It would never work. Groaning...he listened carefully. Changmin was still asleep. The idiot. All this noise and he sleeps through it. And Jae Joong? He was totally out of it. He probably didn't even know what he was doing.
Moving himself up slowly, Yunho couldn't help but fall back down against Jae Joong. What the hell? Struggling abit, Yunho moved his view to see that Jae Joong had a tight grip on his hand.
"Fuck." Yunho muttered.
This time...using his head. He shifted himself to the other side of Jae Joong...and not on him. Atleast he would sleep in a comfortable position.
Murmuring curses to himself, Yunho pulled Jae Joong's covers over himself too.
He would just have to wake up wayyyy before Jae Joong did. Because right now...no matter what he did. Jae Joong wouldn't let go. And he would only lose his hand if he tried.
Just one night. One night to forget everything. And just sleep everything away. To know that...everything will be okay.