I'm Sorry.
im finally gettin' a job! my moms gettin' erica and i a job at the grocery warehouse right down the street from our houses. im pretty excited cause ill be makin some money. and it seems pretty easy! but we'll see. and then, on wednesday im going to start my GED. ew, its $60, but my moms payin for it. and then ill prolly be done by next week. then i get a car! oh, im so excited!!!! but i kinda hope that i dont get my gmas car. i mean its nice, its a 2000 alero. but its 2 door. i REALLY want a 4 door car. but i kno ill be happy with whatever i get!
welp, i got some bad news. i dont kno if i am going to have a baby. im REALLY contemplating on keeping it or not. im really not ready for this. ive had a lot of time to think about it. i mean, ill kno how to take car of it and everything. and ill have a lot of support from my family and friends. but i dont kno if i even want kids at all. and i wanna do something with my life. if i have a kid, i wont be able to hang out n e more, i wont be able to go to college, ill have to work and stay home all the time. Ah! its a very hard decision!!!! and i talked to my friend today about the abortion pill. holy shit. it scared the fuck outta me. she said it felt like she was giving birth and she bled for a month and a half. and it hurt so bad that she couldnt even move. that she jus cried all the time. and then like 3 or 4 weeks after she took the pill and everything, the pain jus came back outta nowhere. when she was at work. im SO scared about that. and this shit is $500. but he said that he would pay for half of it. so i only gotta pay $250. even tho thats still a lot of money. ohwell, i dont kno. somethin will work out :-/
Richards been makin me happy recently. when i saw him at brandons house the other day. we were cuddling the whole time. it was nice. hahaha and he was tellin everyone there that i was havin his baby. it was cute. and we've been talkin and hangin out ever since. its nice. but hes like my best friend. i would marry him if i could. and hes still obligated to tashas stupid drama ass n e wayz.
and im so sad. he joined the marines. and in august he leaves for his 2nd thing of boot camp till october. then he comes back for a couple of weeks. then goes to ceria (sp) for 6 months to a year! thats jus like a couple of miles out of iraq. im scared! uh, ohwell atleast hes doin somethin with his life. he sure will have a lot of money when he gets back!!!
guess lifes alright. im cleanin my act up. gettin right. we'll see what happens!
welp, i got some bad news. i dont kno if i am going to have a baby. im REALLY contemplating on keeping it or not. im really not ready for this. ive had a lot of time to think about it. i mean, ill kno how to take car of it and everything. and ill have a lot of support from my family and friends. but i dont kno if i even want kids at all. and i wanna do something with my life. if i have a kid, i wont be able to hang out n e more, i wont be able to go to college, ill have to work and stay home all the time. Ah! its a very hard decision!!!! and i talked to my friend today about the abortion pill. holy shit. it scared the fuck outta me. she said it felt like she was giving birth and she bled for a month and a half. and it hurt so bad that she couldnt even move. that she jus cried all the time. and then like 3 or 4 weeks after she took the pill and everything, the pain jus came back outta nowhere. when she was at work. im SO scared about that. and this shit is $500. but he said that he would pay for half of it. so i only gotta pay $250. even tho thats still a lot of money. ohwell, i dont kno. somethin will work out :-/
Richards been makin me happy recently. when i saw him at brandons house the other day. we were cuddling the whole time. it was nice. hahaha and he was tellin everyone there that i was havin his baby. it was cute. and we've been talkin and hangin out ever since. its nice. but hes like my best friend. i would marry him if i could. and hes still obligated to tashas stupid drama ass n e wayz.
and im so sad. he joined the marines. and in august he leaves for his 2nd thing of boot camp till october. then he comes back for a couple of weeks. then goes to ceria (sp) for 6 months to a year! thats jus like a couple of miles out of iraq. im scared! uh, ohwell atleast hes doin somethin with his life. he sure will have a lot of money when he gets back!!!
guess lifes alright. im cleanin my act up. gettin right. we'll see what happens!