Living the dream....
I haven't wrote in a while, so I thought I would give it a shot. Well this Thanksgiving was a failure....like the last one....it wasn't so bad I suppose. Only the fact that mom decided to get ridiculously drunk and be very annoying. Nothing ever changes. But other than that, it went well. Ate a lot of food, conversed, bellies full. I feel a lot better when this bowl is in my hand, ready to be toked on. And so I forget all my problems as I light it up. I was living in a dream for 3 months. Thinking that I could find some sort of romantic feelings for someone. But when I tried to reach out and when I put myself out there.....it always ends up in a black hole. From this point on, I now know that I can't allow myself to get reattached to another person so quickly. I must be more cautious. Keep my guard up...now I must toke away..