HeadFuck ExFuck
Im so tired. So tired and unresolved. Used, abused, tasted, wasted, chewed and spat out again. Today was a bit of a head fuck. Two ex's in the same location, talking to each other etc. THeres nothing wrong with that of course. Its just so ironic, on this particular day that they both appear, and they both hang out together. It didnt bother me so much until the paranoia started to kick in. And then the seriality of it all. Two different people, from two different worlds, and two differnet parts of my life, both of which hurt me in the same room, with me in it. This probably all sounds pathetic, its not like i have feelings for either of them, but it was hard to cope with, i feel uneasy seeing either of them, let alone both on the same DAY, at the same TIME, at the same PLACE. Argh, i feel all siletn and depressed. I cant take things like that anymore, they really screw me over. I end up being all happy and independant and confident for a while, then cave in and give in to my doubts and paranoias, my feelings. all at once i become overcome with thoughts that dont have an relevance, and i become distraught with ideas that only my paranoid little head could think of. And now, now i just feel uncomfortable.