why you'd want to live here
i went to wally's brother's confirmation mass this week. turns out -
i'm prone to crying during worship no matter which religion i'm observing.
something about being surrounded in families,
something about being on the periphery of a connection of families,
on the periphery of community, makes me feel sad or moved or distant
or maybe more connected...
i can't tell and it's hard to say.
it's strange looking back on the way i accustomed myself to amherst. modern american society is so weird with all this moving around, separated families, far-off colleges and mobile careers. i feel a polarizing force between getting to know one place intimately, and wanting to travel many places. i'm staying in amherst post-college because i say i've made a home for myself - something my parents and newington schools never quite did for me. but will amherst feel like home after college? when i don't have a campus to go to? i wonder what the rest of my life will be like. only i know me and only i made my memories and only i will define what happens from now on.
i'm prone to crying during worship no matter which religion i'm observing.
something about being surrounded in families,
something about being on the periphery of a connection of families,
on the periphery of community, makes me feel sad or moved or distant
or maybe more connected...
i can't tell and it's hard to say.
it's strange looking back on the way i accustomed myself to amherst. modern american society is so weird with all this moving around, separated families, far-off colleges and mobile careers. i feel a polarizing force between getting to know one place intimately, and wanting to travel many places. i'm staying in amherst post-college because i say i've made a home for myself - something my parents and newington schools never quite did for me. but will amherst feel like home after college? when i don't have a campus to go to? i wonder what the rest of my life will be like. only i know me and only i made my memories and only i will define what happens from now on.