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It's always a bit of a shock to read livejournal friend entries. They're always so depressing, but it's good because I wouldn't know about anything otherwise. Here's my life update:
I'm actually happier than I have been in a long time. This last summer has made me fully aware of myself, and proud to be me. It's a really amazing revelation that brings me so much power. And yes, I still don't have a tight-knit circle of friends, or a tight-anything kind of friend at all. But I'm extremely busy all the time, between pottery, tech, hashomer hatzair and college. I handily don't have time to hang out, but it's a good things. I don't wallow in myself, and really there's no reason to. I'm happy seeing the people I see in my spare time, and I think Ilona and I are much better. I love her. And I think I'm doing pretty well in school; I got TWO "Highly Motivated" comments on my report card. Ho hum!
I love Ella, and watching her grow up into a teenager. It's weird to think that's the year I realized that there was a world outside of middle school, that drugs and alcohol DO exist. And she's really becoming beautiful. It's fun to watch. And my parents are very proud of me, even though I'm doing far less than most of my classmates. But it's good.
I'm relishing these moments, and I'm seeing how long it will go. I know I have at least till the end of december, when college aps are done. Also, I'm pretty sure mifgash is in my future; and I'm making MONEY! I'M MAKING MY OWN MONEY! I could even pay mifgash by myself, if I really worked on it. It's a nice feeling to be in control of my own life.
I'm actually happier than I have been in a long time. This last summer has made me fully aware of myself, and proud to be me. It's a really amazing revelation that brings me so much power. And yes, I still don't have a tight-knit circle of friends, or a tight-anything kind of friend at all. But I'm extremely busy all the time, between pottery, tech, hashomer hatzair and college. I handily don't have time to hang out, but it's a good things. I don't wallow in myself, and really there's no reason to. I'm happy seeing the people I see in my spare time, and I think Ilona and I are much better. I love her. And I think I'm doing pretty well in school; I got TWO "Highly Motivated" comments on my report card. Ho hum!
I love Ella, and watching her grow up into a teenager. It's weird to think that's the year I realized that there was a world outside of middle school, that drugs and alcohol DO exist. And she's really becoming beautiful. It's fun to watch. And my parents are very proud of me, even though I'm doing far less than most of my classmates. But it's good.
I'm relishing these moments, and I'm seeing how long it will go. I know I have at least till the end of december, when college aps are done. Also, I'm pretty sure mifgash is in my future; and I'm making MONEY! I'M MAKING MY OWN MONEY! I could even pay mifgash by myself, if I really worked on it. It's a nice feeling to be in control of my own life.