family and flowers
So I'm pretty sick of my family. My sister always takes everything to heart-- like tonight we're all going to a bar downtown, and she asked me if I was gonna meet her there or at her place and take a cab-- and I was being pressured into going with her (making me feel bad by even giving me another option)... and so when I said "oh, well I dont know whats going on yet, I'm trying to get some friends to come too", she said "you can just say you're gonna meet us down there, I hate how when it comes to your friends you always put me on the back burner"
trying to make me feel bad- as normal.
I swear, I'd like it if she'd just understand that she is my sister-- I can't handle having her as a friend too, because she gets like this. Its not like I prioritize my friends over family, its just that she gets so hurt if I have friends I'd rather hang out with instead. Or if I have something to do after I hang out with her, she thinks im just killing time. She gets really selfish sometimes, as if her problems are more important, and always passes judgement on me like she can. She tries to give me relationship advice and she's only ever been with her husband. It just frustrates me because I want to live my life without her interference, and thats pretty much impossible. I thought it was great that trevor wanted to even come tonight, i'm not gonna say "hey, meet us there" because I know theres a good chance he might chicken out or something (since he's meeting my sis and broinlaw for the first time tonight).
Frustrating. cant stand it. Cant post it on myspace either because jeni will read it and get all pissy and act superior and hurt. blah.
trying to make me feel bad- as normal.
I swear, I'd like it if she'd just understand that she is my sister-- I can't handle having her as a friend too, because she gets like this. Its not like I prioritize my friends over family, its just that she gets so hurt if I have friends I'd rather hang out with instead. Or if I have something to do after I hang out with her, she thinks im just killing time. She gets really selfish sometimes, as if her problems are more important, and always passes judgement on me like she can. She tries to give me relationship advice and she's only ever been with her husband. It just frustrates me because I want to live my life without her interference, and thats pretty much impossible. I thought it was great that trevor wanted to even come tonight, i'm not gonna say "hey, meet us there" because I know theres a good chance he might chicken out or something (since he's meeting my sis and broinlaw for the first time tonight).
Frustrating. cant stand it. Cant post it on myspace either because jeni will read it and get all pissy and act superior and hurt. blah.