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I am in a somewhat usual mood for me, not awful but nowhere near jumping for joy either... and I hate being "music sensitive"
the song that just got done playing on media player was "tellulah" by sonata arctica I think that is the name of the group... it sucks cause it is relevant to me in the lyrics so it was everything I could do to prevent myself from switching the song...
I go through periods of okayness then I experience full bore surpressed rage...... JD is right Kevin should not be alone with me for awhile.. I feel an extreme amount of betrayal in this situation
a Betrayal of friendship and a whole list of other emotions and thoughts swirled up.
this situation is growing more uncomfortable everyday, I get patronized cause I wanted to talk to Kevin online and he tries to convince me that amy is NOT going over to his house to spend time with him but to look for a job cause it is closer... umm his house is approx 30 min. north of me and the place amy was to go work is 30 min SOUTH of me...
I am not an idiot.. the only way she would waste the gas is if she was to spend time with him..
If Kevin truly wanted to be neutral in this situation he would end his budding relationship with Amy before it drives me utterly insane...
I do not want to hurt Kevin but thoughts toward that bend are increasing in frequency and regularity, the intenseness of it will not go away.. I am becoming extremely volatile this situation has never happend to me before so this whole trust issue is on new approach... I have had trust issues before with girlfriends, but this is extremely new.. extremely new..
I do not want to hurt Amy but I would by hurting Kevin... My friends do not want me to hurt myself but then who else is there? I guess I will have to get the opportunity to talk to Kevin again and update him on my situation, it will not change anything but at least he will be informed.
Amy is thinking about moving into our friends house.. Sarah fertig I think it would be good for her to be neutral located.
I still want to hit something or someone.
the song that just got done playing on media player was "tellulah" by sonata arctica I think that is the name of the group... it sucks cause it is relevant to me in the lyrics so it was everything I could do to prevent myself from switching the song...
I go through periods of okayness then I experience full bore surpressed rage...... JD is right Kevin should not be alone with me for awhile.. I feel an extreme amount of betrayal in this situation
a Betrayal of friendship and a whole list of other emotions and thoughts swirled up.
this situation is growing more uncomfortable everyday, I get patronized cause I wanted to talk to Kevin online and he tries to convince me that amy is NOT going over to his house to spend time with him but to look for a job cause it is closer... umm his house is approx 30 min. north of me and the place amy was to go work is 30 min SOUTH of me...
I am not an idiot.. the only way she would waste the gas is if she was to spend time with him..
If Kevin truly wanted to be neutral in this situation he would end his budding relationship with Amy before it drives me utterly insane...
I do not want to hurt Kevin but thoughts toward that bend are increasing in frequency and regularity, the intenseness of it will not go away.. I am becoming extremely volatile this situation has never happend to me before so this whole trust issue is on new approach... I have had trust issues before with girlfriends, but this is extremely new.. extremely new..
I do not want to hurt Amy but I would by hurting Kevin... My friends do not want me to hurt myself but then who else is there? I guess I will have to get the opportunity to talk to Kevin again and update him on my situation, it will not change anything but at least he will be informed.
Amy is thinking about moving into our friends house.. Sarah fertig I think it would be good for her to be neutral located.
I still want to hit something or someone.