wasn't jesus born in june anyway?
it's starting to feel a little like christmas (i love getting presents for people that i know they'll love, and i can't complain about getting them myself either), but i'm still more depressed than i thought i'd be. i haven't felt this low since right after rachel left, but then i've been almost too busy to be unhappy before the break. maybe i just have that chemical imbalance where you get depressed during the holidays, who knows. mia's pissed at me too, i hate it when she gets mad. most of the time it's because i can't hang out or go somewhere, but it's really not my fault, maybe it is, i dunno. i don't know what to do. i hate it when she's all depressed/pissed at herself too, she's too beautiful and completely together to be self-concious, but there's no way i can tell her that without just sounding like a concerned best friend, which i am, but it's true, she's just hair shy of perfect. i envy her sooo much sometimes. oh well. maybe the best part is that she doesn't even realize how great she is.