Rant!
Okay I rarely rant about anything, but recently I've been reading a lot. It's just my own personal way of escaping RL. It allows my mind to just wander and contemplate stuff.
So cos I've read pretty much all the good long fics I can find rec'd I've been wandering around LJ and the net looking for new stuff.
Boy! I long for some good new/old fic. There is some complete drivel out there.
I'm fed up to the back teeth of fic that has rape scenes where(usually) Xander gets raped(which I have no problem with, as long as it's part of the fic) and gets over come with desire! Christ, yes blokes ejaculate when raped, it happens if the prostate gets stimulated but THEY DO NOT ENJOY IT!
I'll admit I like dark, angsty fic especially if there is a happy ending(define 'happy' how you will), I like good D/s fic if it follows a few(not even all) of the rules, but never call something D/s when really it's just enforced slavery with conditioning.
Why is Xander always portrayed as so weak! He's not, growing up in an abusive household, friends with two strong women(strong women do not generally hang out with weak minded blokes). Male and Female rape victims generally have major emotional scars, especially males that ejaculated when it was happening.
I mean imagine the scene.
'you are awake on a bed, its cold. You are naked and groggy from whatever, you are tied to said bed. Fear fills your mind, who, what and where are running round your head. You call out nobody comes.
Later the door opens and the thing you have just spent(blank)number of years fighting walks in. You know that it can and will kill you with out a thought. It walks over to the bed and starts to touch you, it being a demon is not in to the pleasantries like name and likes and dislikes it wants to Fuck you. You start to struggle, wrists and ankles burn from the rope, scraping off skin until they start to bleed. You scream and shout 'no' but it never stops. The touching and petting. You start to sob.'
AND THEN YOU ARE SUPPOSED TO START LIKING IT! YEAH, RIGHT. You can be conditioned to enjoy pain and humiliation but it changes you fundamentally to do so unwillingly.
There are some fics out there that handle this with great finesse. But by far and away the majority just don't seem to think about using their own emotions and empathy for the situation.
Anyway enough of that, these thoughts were just going round and round in my mind and I needed to get them out. Sorry if I've nattered on to long. I'm not at my most coherent when trying to explain my feelings.
So *grins* saying all that I'm off to write *gulp* some dark fic with rape scene, and hopefully not commit the sins I dislike so much.
BTW: Why does LJ still insist that 'fic' and 'Spander' are not real words when I spell check! It doesn't even like 'Xander' *pouts*
So cos I've read pretty much all the good long fics I can find rec'd I've been wandering around LJ and the net looking for new stuff.
Boy! I long for some good new/old fic. There is some complete drivel out there.
I'm fed up to the back teeth of fic that has rape scenes where(usually) Xander gets raped(which I have no problem with, as long as it's part of the fic) and gets over come with desire! Christ, yes blokes ejaculate when raped, it happens if the prostate gets stimulated but THEY DO NOT ENJOY IT!
I'll admit I like dark, angsty fic especially if there is a happy ending(define 'happy' how you will), I like good D/s fic if it follows a few(not even all) of the rules, but never call something D/s when really it's just enforced slavery with conditioning.
Why is Xander always portrayed as so weak! He's not, growing up in an abusive household, friends with two strong women(strong women do not generally hang out with weak minded blokes). Male and Female rape victims generally have major emotional scars, especially males that ejaculated when it was happening.
I mean imagine the scene.
'you are awake on a bed, its cold. You are naked and groggy from whatever, you are tied to said bed. Fear fills your mind, who, what and where are running round your head. You call out nobody comes.
Later the door opens and the thing you have just spent(blank)number of years fighting walks in. You know that it can and will kill you with out a thought. It walks over to the bed and starts to touch you, it being a demon is not in to the pleasantries like name and likes and dislikes it wants to Fuck you. You start to struggle, wrists and ankles burn from the rope, scraping off skin until they start to bleed. You scream and shout 'no' but it never stops. The touching and petting. You start to sob.'
AND THEN YOU ARE SUPPOSED TO START LIKING IT! YEAH, RIGHT. You can be conditioned to enjoy pain and humiliation but it changes you fundamentally to do so unwillingly.
There are some fics out there that handle this with great finesse. But by far and away the majority just don't seem to think about using their own emotions and empathy for the situation.
Anyway enough of that, these thoughts were just going round and round in my mind and I needed to get them out. Sorry if I've nattered on to long. I'm not at my most coherent when trying to explain my feelings.
So *grins* saying all that I'm off to write *gulp* some dark fic with rape scene, and hopefully not commit the sins I dislike so much.
BTW: Why does LJ still insist that 'fic' and 'Spander' are not real words when I spell check! It doesn't even like 'Xander' *pouts*