ok, I know.....
I don't post on this thing, enough.... but if there's still people out there that read my stuff, I gotta vent a little bit....
You know, I don't understand the human race, sometimes. They claim to be your friend, but when you REALLY need them, they're not there.... sure, they call you once every couple of weeks, or say hi to you online.... and you ALWAYS give them an ear when they need somebody to talk to. but, are they REALLY there for you??? NOPE.... they've always got an excuse NOT to go anywhere with you... and they quit talking to you, quit returning your calls...and when you ask if something's wrong... they say "no, of course not.. I'm going through a phase... my bi polar makes me push people away" or "no, I've just been busy with work".... but, yet.... they still go over to other friend's houses..and have bbq's and go to the movies with them.... but, you're not supposed to think they're pushing you out...
And then, there are other friends that you've been online friends with for YEARS...I'm talking 8 or so years... and, every now and then, they go through this "depression" and quit talking to you... or get mad over a joke that you send them.... or go through this self loathing phase, where they tell you "I've already pushed most my friends away, guess, I'll push you away too, and start with a clean slate".... WHAT THE HELL DOES THAT MEAN???? I was there for you when your wife wanted another man, and wanted to keep you... I was there when your wife divorced you and married this guy... what the hell do you mean, you want to start with a clean slate???
what the fuck ever...
but, do you see a pattern here?? whatever the excuse, whatever the fucked up reasoning, it's me and my hubby that get pushed away.....
whatever...just wanted to vent..thanks to those that stayed....
You know, I don't understand the human race, sometimes. They claim to be your friend, but when you REALLY need them, they're not there.... sure, they call you once every couple of weeks, or say hi to you online.... and you ALWAYS give them an ear when they need somebody to talk to. but, are they REALLY there for you??? NOPE.... they've always got an excuse NOT to go anywhere with you... and they quit talking to you, quit returning your calls...and when you ask if something's wrong... they say "no, of course not.. I'm going through a phase... my bi polar makes me push people away" or "no, I've just been busy with work".... but, yet.... they still go over to other friend's houses..and have bbq's and go to the movies with them.... but, you're not supposed to think they're pushing you out...
And then, there are other friends that you've been online friends with for YEARS...I'm talking 8 or so years... and, every now and then, they go through this "depression" and quit talking to you... or get mad over a joke that you send them.... or go through this self loathing phase, where they tell you "I've already pushed most my friends away, guess, I'll push you away too, and start with a clean slate".... WHAT THE HELL DOES THAT MEAN???? I was there for you when your wife wanted another man, and wanted to keep you... I was there when your wife divorced you and married this guy... what the hell do you mean, you want to start with a clean slate???
what the fuck ever...
but, do you see a pattern here?? whatever the excuse, whatever the fucked up reasoning, it's me and my hubby that get pushed away.....
whatever...just wanted to vent..thanks to those that stayed....