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Well, it's been a month on the job now.
...I just realized. I completely forgot to ever post and say I'd taken it. Uh - hey, guess what! I took that job I was angsting about. Started back on the second.
The good news: Things have been going pretty well. I'm having a hard time believing I'm ACTUALLY being paid to do this. I'm too used to labor or phone-heavy CSR positions. The pay isn't great, but the look ahead is positive that way. I'm aiming right now to get a used car by January (provided no money crises come up), and then it's building the downpayment for an apartment when Amanda gets here. I'm already looking at rentals in the area around where I work - Tonawanda's a good neighborhood.
The job itself really appeals to my thinking and attitudes, honestly. My collection of useless knowledge actually IS useful! I have to know a bit about damn near everything. I have to understand medicine for health insurance, vehicles for car insurance, architecture for homeowners and so forth. I've already made a few contributions to help things out - like using Google Earth's streetview to get remote looks at houses we insure.
The job is about half clerical work (which I'm being given mostly as a learning exercise so I know how things work 'under the hood') and half studying for the exams. I'm doing pretty good, apparently, for somebody who was starting from absolute zero a month ago. I should be ready for the first test (Health & Life) in a bit over a month.
The bad news? While I'm feeling more upbeat and getting my feet under me, I'm still not able to get past the embarrassment that this is nepotism. Nobody's telling me so (and many people have said otherwise vocally), but I can't overcome that mental hurdle. I think I'm always going to feel weighted down by it. I'm trying not to let it stop me, though. Nepotism or not, this is what I need right now to make things right.
Also, it's WAY too tempting to have a sweet-ass laptop at work, an excellent net connection and not a huge amount to do. It's not helping that I'm only supposed to get half an hour for lunch, but I'm frequently being taken places for lunch by various bosses and not coming back for sometimes up to two hours.
...I just realized. I completely forgot to ever post and say I'd taken it. Uh - hey, guess what! I took that job I was angsting about. Started back on the second.
The good news: Things have been going pretty well. I'm having a hard time believing I'm ACTUALLY being paid to do this. I'm too used to labor or phone-heavy CSR positions. The pay isn't great, but the look ahead is positive that way. I'm aiming right now to get a used car by January (provided no money crises come up), and then it's building the downpayment for an apartment when Amanda gets here. I'm already looking at rentals in the area around where I work - Tonawanda's a good neighborhood.
The job itself really appeals to my thinking and attitudes, honestly. My collection of useless knowledge actually IS useful! I have to know a bit about damn near everything. I have to understand medicine for health insurance, vehicles for car insurance, architecture for homeowners and so forth. I've already made a few contributions to help things out - like using Google Earth's streetview to get remote looks at houses we insure.
The job is about half clerical work (which I'm being given mostly as a learning exercise so I know how things work 'under the hood') and half studying for the exams. I'm doing pretty good, apparently, for somebody who was starting from absolute zero a month ago. I should be ready for the first test (Health & Life) in a bit over a month.
The bad news? While I'm feeling more upbeat and getting my feet under me, I'm still not able to get past the embarrassment that this is nepotism. Nobody's telling me so (and many people have said otherwise vocally), but I can't overcome that mental hurdle. I think I'm always going to feel weighted down by it. I'm trying not to let it stop me, though. Nepotism or not, this is what I need right now to make things right.
Also, it's WAY too tempting to have a sweet-ass laptop at work, an excellent net connection and not a huge amount to do. It's not helping that I'm only supposed to get half an hour for lunch, but I'm frequently being taken places for lunch by various bosses and not coming back for sometimes up to two hours.