dammit
Today was both good and bad. Currently it's bad.
It started out good...I went with Doug to a birthday party in Bloomington for his niece today. It was at a water park and they actually got me to wade in the water (I don't do the whole swimming thing anymore, after too many reactions to chlorine when I was younger, so I don't actually own a swimsuit or anything) but I rolled up my pants and walked around in the water for a while (it was a beach-style pool only like a foot deep in the middle for little kids, so I barely got wet up to my knees, which was the way I wanted it. So yeah, that was my first time in anything like a pool in the last five years except for the high school swim test I took senior year.
Anyway...that was fun. And after that we went to dinner and then people were going to go see Terminator 3 but both Doug and I decided we didn't have enough money so we came back here and watched Good Will Hunting instead. Yes, that was one of the many movies that I *should* have seen a long time ago but never had. *sigh* It's just the sort of movie Doug would want me to see anyway because its message seemed to be something he's been trying to get into my head for months.
So that gave me some brain food, which wasn't bad, but it made me think about lots of stuff, which isn't usually good in a happy way. More about that later, maybe. But then, when I get home, I find a message on my answering machine that was left an hour after I left for the party saying that the Korean students (I probably didn't mention this earlier here, but I'm helping host some Korean students for three weeks this summer.) were planning on cooking some Korean food at one of the other host's places tonight for dinner and I'm invited...of course, I get this message at midnight, twelve hours after it was left on my machine, and like eight hours after they were cooking...-.- I wanted to go...I can't believe the other host expected such short notice would work...only an hour earlier and I would have gotten it...-.-
So that was bad. I have to call her tomorrow. And I have to try to contact Son Sil (my student) because I haven't seen her in a week, and she's only here for three weeks...I was with her on like four days in the first week, but still.
Come to think of it, the day didn't really start out all that well either...because of my dream...I dreamed about him again for the first time in weeks...I don't know why last night and not two weeks ago when things shifted, but I didn't dream about him then. I wanted to believe I had, but it seems I haven't let go as much as I should have by now...
Yes I'm being cryptic again...I do that sometimes, mostly because I need to write to figure stuff out but I don't feel like putting exactly what's going on up on a site for anyone who stumbles by to see...if you're confused, just ask...
It started out good...I went with Doug to a birthday party in Bloomington for his niece today. It was at a water park and they actually got me to wade in the water (I don't do the whole swimming thing anymore, after too many reactions to chlorine when I was younger, so I don't actually own a swimsuit or anything) but I rolled up my pants and walked around in the water for a while (it was a beach-style pool only like a foot deep in the middle for little kids, so I barely got wet up to my knees, which was the way I wanted it. So yeah, that was my first time in anything like a pool in the last five years except for the high school swim test I took senior year.
Anyway...that was fun. And after that we went to dinner and then people were going to go see Terminator 3 but both Doug and I decided we didn't have enough money so we came back here and watched Good Will Hunting instead. Yes, that was one of the many movies that I *should* have seen a long time ago but never had. *sigh* It's just the sort of movie Doug would want me to see anyway because its message seemed to be something he's been trying to get into my head for months.
So that gave me some brain food, which wasn't bad, but it made me think about lots of stuff, which isn't usually good in a happy way. More about that later, maybe. But then, when I get home, I find a message on my answering machine that was left an hour after I left for the party saying that the Korean students (I probably didn't mention this earlier here, but I'm helping host some Korean students for three weeks this summer.) were planning on cooking some Korean food at one of the other host's places tonight for dinner and I'm invited...of course, I get this message at midnight, twelve hours after it was left on my machine, and like eight hours after they were cooking...-.- I wanted to go...I can't believe the other host expected such short notice would work...only an hour earlier and I would have gotten it...-.-
So that was bad. I have to call her tomorrow. And I have to try to contact Son Sil (my student) because I haven't seen her in a week, and she's only here for three weeks...I was with her on like four days in the first week, but still.
Come to think of it, the day didn't really start out all that well either...because of my dream...I dreamed about him again for the first time in weeks...I don't know why last night and not two weeks ago when things shifted, but I didn't dream about him then. I wanted to believe I had, but it seems I haven't let go as much as I should have by now...
Yes I'm being cryptic again...I do that sometimes, mostly because I need to write to figure stuff out but I don't feel like putting exactly what's going on up on a site for anyone who stumbles by to see...if you're confused, just ask...