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I don’t really post much lately not here, not anywhere really, because normally I don’t have a lot really to say to anyone, my own loneliness gets to me sometime, and it’s no one’s fault really but my own. I push so many people away from me all the time that I don’t keep, many friends. I guess in the end it’s this fear of not getting hurt. And I am not one to fear many things, sides from an atomic bomb dropping which has always been an almost unreasonable fear about me, it’s not like I grew up in a war stricken country, I believe I could boil it down to the fact I grew up next to air force bases. Though still I really don’t do much with people. I don’t drink socially, I don’t smoke and I have never been into drugs. Drug are so something I am not into though it’s a personal choice, not from the fact I had DARE shoved down my throat, but I have seen to many people destroy their lives on it, be it Marijuana to Cocaine, it’s just not for me. However times in depression from the lack of social interaction I tend to act like I am strung out on something because I talk to myself. Which in a since is pretty amusing, in any case I am posting here now because I can and because I just want to let the happy people in the world know I am alive.