i think to much...somebody shoot me
Well today was pretty good.
I slept in my moms comfy bed
last night because my step
dads in San Diego on bussiness.
So i got a good nights sleep.
And i had an alright day at
school. I relised that my math
teacher doesn't pay attention
to us in the back far corner.
I kinda like it that way.
Not being noticed. Though I
would like to be noticed by
some..im not saying names. Yea,
anyway, then i walked home in
the pouring rain. It acctually
felt like i got home faster.
And i felt like a was oblivious
to the world, like i wasn't
even there walking home, except
for the fact the back of my
legs were so cold from the water
that they almost burned. I love
walking home by myself. It gives
me some time to think. I mean
really think, like not have to
worry about the comotion around
you, and just viewing the fall
foliage as i walk down the street,
im in my own world, in my own
almost trans, that is until i
get home or someone comes along.
What do i think about? I think
about many things, like love.
What is love anyway, i mean, what
is it? How do you know your truly
in love and not just crushing on
someone? or how do you know
someone really loves you, or it
they're just saying that to get
something from you or just to make
you feel good. you don't know if
they really love you. You can only
guess really, and trust them. I
think about school to, like wheather
i should do this homework or wait
untill home room to do it. and music,
i think a lot about music, like i
dunno, i wish i had a pen and paper
handy while i walked home, jot down
ideas, and all the lyrics i come up
with. Seriously, i think i've
created/imagined an intire song on
my walk home. and i put my life in
story form. to see everything i do
wrong, or what i should do right or
what not. god, this must sound super
lame. Well if the shoe fits. anyway,
i'm supose to be doing homework right
now but im to indepth in thought to
stop and do my homework, i have to
get everything down on paper first.
then my mind shall be clear and ready
to do homework that i don't want to
do. Now im getting way off topic.
Hmm...where was i? Oh yes, getting
all my thoughts down on paper. yes.
well there's this guy, i wasn't sure
if i loved him or just liked him a
lot. but i guess i do love him...
*sigh* i do love him..grr..what
should i do? He already knows i
love him..well i dunno if he knows
but i've told him..and i think i annoy
him, i try to talk to him to often..
i guess i should wait for him to
talk to me...but really, if anyone
has any sudgestions please comment..
i have no idea what to do..im
definatly going to lose sleep over this one.
<3
I slept in my moms comfy bed
last night because my step
dads in San Diego on bussiness.
So i got a good nights sleep.
And i had an alright day at
school. I relised that my math
teacher doesn't pay attention
to us in the back far corner.
I kinda like it that way.
Not being noticed. Though I
would like to be noticed by
some..im not saying names. Yea,
anyway, then i walked home in
the pouring rain. It acctually
felt like i got home faster.
And i felt like a was oblivious
to the world, like i wasn't
even there walking home, except
for the fact the back of my
legs were so cold from the water
that they almost burned. I love
walking home by myself. It gives
me some time to think. I mean
really think, like not have to
worry about the comotion around
you, and just viewing the fall
foliage as i walk down the street,
im in my own world, in my own
almost trans, that is until i
get home or someone comes along.
What do i think about? I think
about many things, like love.
What is love anyway, i mean, what
is it? How do you know your truly
in love and not just crushing on
someone? or how do you know
someone really loves you, or it
they're just saying that to get
something from you or just to make
you feel good. you don't know if
they really love you. You can only
guess really, and trust them. I
think about school to, like wheather
i should do this homework or wait
untill home room to do it. and music,
i think a lot about music, like i
dunno, i wish i had a pen and paper
handy while i walked home, jot down
ideas, and all the lyrics i come up
with. Seriously, i think i've
created/imagined an intire song on
my walk home. and i put my life in
story form. to see everything i do
wrong, or what i should do right or
what not. god, this must sound super
lame. Well if the shoe fits. anyway,
i'm supose to be doing homework right
now but im to indepth in thought to
stop and do my homework, i have to
get everything down on paper first.
then my mind shall be clear and ready
to do homework that i don't want to
do. Now im getting way off topic.
Hmm...where was i? Oh yes, getting
all my thoughts down on paper. yes.
well there's this guy, i wasn't sure
if i loved him or just liked him a
lot. but i guess i do love him...
*sigh* i do love him..grr..what
should i do? He already knows i
love him..well i dunno if he knows
but i've told him..and i think i annoy
him, i try to talk to him to often..
i guess i should wait for him to
talk to me...but really, if anyone
has any sudgestions please comment..
i have no idea what to do..im
definatly going to lose sleep over this one.
<3