The Fat Lady Ain't Singing
She's not. My life isn't over. Not even close. I still can do great things. Anything is possible. Even Michi and me.
Everything is sweeping around me and it's capturing my heart in the most romantic way possible. I feel like the Prince from Ever After. I can so relate to him at this moment in time.
I want him so bad. So bad I can taste. So bad that I want to drop everything run down there in my car and blair cheesey love songs lyrics from a boom-box and dedicate it to him.
He's my dream. Maybe I'm crazy. Maybe I should just forget all about this and move on. But I can't. Everything inside me is telling me to do this. NOW! Otherwise forget it. Forget the new me forget the experience forget the adventure. And I won't forget it.
It stretches further than Michi though. That's what I have to remember. That he isn't the end of my journey. That he sparked something that began it and that I want to be with him but ultimately the future of our "relationship" doesn't determine the success of my journey. That's the thing I have to remember.
I'm changing. I know I am. I'm going to work out today. I'm going to read scripture tonight and I'm going to the library to get a crap load of work done. I'm going to be on top of things and I'm going to grow beyond myself.
I'm not doing the Hipp Program this summer. One there's no way I can get everything done in time. Two I'd be gone all summer. I was away last summer and I don't want to be away again. Three I would prefer to do the Mediterrean Foreign Study experience and Four Michi. I need to be here this summer so that he and I can get our friendship back on track and who knows maybe more.
Everything is sweeping around me and it's capturing my heart in the most romantic way possible. I feel like the Prince from Ever After. I can so relate to him at this moment in time.
I want him so bad. So bad I can taste. So bad that I want to drop everything run down there in my car and blair cheesey love songs lyrics from a boom-box and dedicate it to him.
He's my dream. Maybe I'm crazy. Maybe I should just forget all about this and move on. But I can't. Everything inside me is telling me to do this. NOW! Otherwise forget it. Forget the new me forget the experience forget the adventure. And I won't forget it.
It stretches further than Michi though. That's what I have to remember. That he isn't the end of my journey. That he sparked something that began it and that I want to be with him but ultimately the future of our "relationship" doesn't determine the success of my journey. That's the thing I have to remember.
I'm changing. I know I am. I'm going to work out today. I'm going to read scripture tonight and I'm going to the library to get a crap load of work done. I'm going to be on top of things and I'm going to grow beyond myself.
I'm not doing the Hipp Program this summer. One there's no way I can get everything done in time. Two I'd be gone all summer. I was away last summer and I don't want to be away again. Three I would prefer to do the Mediterrean Foreign Study experience and Four Michi. I need to be here this summer so that he and I can get our friendship back on track and who knows maybe more.