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so it comes to this... another day... another random stumble in the dark...
i want more Courage.. i have enough if it involves Gambling with my life, or making an arse of myself in public, or even in defending others.. but when it comes time to speak up for something i want or cry out at something thats ripping me apart... i've got nothing, maybe its because i don't see myself as a Priority therefore don't bother with such things... meh i don't know
Part of me by linkin park is a good song...
i've changed my birthday party plans to be the friday after the 6th, which is the 8th... time has yet to be determined but it should start at 6 till late... most likey 12 or later... not that it really matters, the joy of the evening will be watching all the different people i know try and interact, i have a feeling there will be a lot of seperate small groups
thing of the day that i can't stand is falsehood... people pretending, acting GRRRR... kind of hypocritical because i think i do it, but if people were straight with me they'ed get the same in return...
its dark and cloudy outside.. just the way it should be today...
i'm starting to like public transport... travelling alone is just fun...
i hope nobody was poisoned by my BBQ at Hazels... although my hands and eyes paid dearly for it...
i think my actions are never really understood by most people... my meaning is often lost to them, maybe if i explained it to them things would be different... but i never do... and probley never will
i wonder how many people ever read my LJ... it should tell you how many times people visit your LJ...
anyway i should stop talking now
i want more Courage.. i have enough if it involves Gambling with my life, or making an arse of myself in public, or even in defending others.. but when it comes time to speak up for something i want or cry out at something thats ripping me apart... i've got nothing, maybe its because i don't see myself as a Priority therefore don't bother with such things... meh i don't know
Part of me by linkin park is a good song...
i've changed my birthday party plans to be the friday after the 6th, which is the 8th... time has yet to be determined but it should start at 6 till late... most likey 12 or later... not that it really matters, the joy of the evening will be watching all the different people i know try and interact, i have a feeling there will be a lot of seperate small groups
thing of the day that i can't stand is falsehood... people pretending, acting GRRRR... kind of hypocritical because i think i do it, but if people were straight with me they'ed get the same in return...
its dark and cloudy outside.. just the way it should be today...
i'm starting to like public transport... travelling alone is just fun...
i hope nobody was poisoned by my BBQ at Hazels... although my hands and eyes paid dearly for it...
i think my actions are never really understood by most people... my meaning is often lost to them, maybe if i explained it to them things would be different... but i never do... and probley never will
i wonder how many people ever read my LJ... it should tell you how many times people visit your LJ...
anyway i should stop talking now