♥ When Daylight No Longer Exists; Chapter 4
Title: When daylight no longer exists.
Author: tellykins
Pairings: Various, I can't really reveal that yet.
Rating: R, Higher rated chapters will be marked as NC-17
Disclaimer: Story based on GFD spin off. I seriously loved that! But, I do don't own Super Junior.
Genre: A lot. I'll be sure to put warnings for extreme things. AU! Vampires.
Summary: Kyuhyun never was that tempted before. It has been said that suffering builds character, but this time he doesn't want anything else then putting an end to his miseries. That is, until he meets an mysterious hot guy who gives him an alternative. One that would give him purpose and bring him to his ultimate destiny. But does he make the right choice?
Chapter: Chapter 4
Previous Chapters: (Masterlist)
A/N: Do it, do it Chu~ Aw' Kyu, it's hard to be accepted so soon. Even though I'd like to say 'Poor Yesung' the way I imagined it, was funny / xD *bricked*
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Chapter 4
Hankyung would take my hand every now and then and slow down a bit. We would naturally fall behind a little, and he would never say much, but he would look at me and smile. There was a weird tension between us, and every time we shared a little too much of it, we would stop holding hands and catch up. Only to do it again a few minutes later.
Joining us that night was Heechul, his apparent ‘boyfriend’ Shiwon, Ryeowook, Yesung, and Kibum. We all made a little noise, and a few times I even laughed along with them as they teased each other and pranced back and forth along the sidewalk, occasionally jumping up to grab a tree branch, or swinging themselves around a light pole. It was a curiously good feeling. I know it sounds sad, but I never had friends like this before. I never had friends at all.
We went down a dark alley and they knocked on a rusty iron door in the back. I was a bit confused as to what was going on, but soon the door opened, and the alley was flooded with the heavy bass of loud techno music. A large bulky man came to the door and looked us up and down.
"Aw geez! Why don't you damn teens just stay away? I'm trying to run a business here, you guys are going to get me in a lot of trouble."
Ryeowook walked up to him and said "Look, Hankyung hyung here, just needs to talk to Onew for a few seconds, and then we're out of here. Please? Just for a few seconds?"
He was so sweet, everything about him was beautiful. He used his hand to gently tuck his shiny brown locks behind his ear, and gave the man a sad puppy look that could melt even the cruellest man's heart.
The man sighed. "If I lose my license I'm personally going to flatten the whole bunch of you, now hurry up! A few seconds, no more. Got it?" The man said, obviously defeated, but trying to keep up the tough guy routine anyway.
"Thanks man, you're a life saver." Hankyung said excitedly. And he stepped aside to let us all walk in through the door. We all walked single file down a long corridor as the beat of the music got louder, and soon we opened another door that led us into the middle of a huge dance party. There were flashing lights and lasers everywhere, the music was loud enough to make my stomach pound in time with the beat, and everyone was wearing black. We somehow made our way through the hundred or so bodies on the dance floor, being knocked about from all sides, and finally found a table somewhere on the wall. Hankyung looked down at me.
"I'll be right back, okay? Don't go anywhere." Then he smiled sheepishly and he backed away from the table. He disappeared into the crowd. I was totally, hopelessly, and completely in love with him. I'd let it consume me from head to toe and…
"Ahem.” Came Heechul’s voice from across the table. I was jarred back into reality, and looked over to see the rest of them staring at me.
"Sorry, I just lost my train of thought there for a second!" I shouted over the music. It was pounding so hard I knew that this would be a difficult conversation indeed.
The second I said it, everyone cringed. "Why the hell are you yelling? Jesus, just talk like a normal person before you deafen us all." Kibum scowled.
"Wha-what?"
"Much better." How could he hear me over this music? I couldn't even hear myself. I'd ask, but at this point I knew the questions would only succeed in making me look stupid.
Heechul eyed me for a second, as though he were sizing me up, and he liked what he saw. Hey, I'm not that bad looking either. "Say Shiwon, why don't you and the rest go score us some drinks from Gyuri at the bar?" He said.
"We're not supposed to drink. We could get Crown J in trouble if we get caught." Ryeowook stuttered quietly. But Heechul just flashed him a serious look that basically gave him the impression that he should keep his mouth shut. Kibum and Yesung looked at each other and were ready to get up.
"Are you sure? I mean, maybe they can bring some back for the both of us." Shiwon replied. But Heechul ran his finger along the guy's smooth cheek and told him to go. Shiwon looked over at me, and then back to Heechul before reluctantly getting out of his seat. All four of them walked away from the table, Ryeowook giving me a slightly worried look before Heechul shooed him away. And there we were. Alone.
"So Kyuhyun, exactly how did you meet our Hannie here?" He asked, smiling at me.
Hide it Kyuhyun, hide it! He can't possibly read everything. He doesn't need to know about the suicide thing, just relax, and hide your thoughts. You can do it.
"Actually I met him on some roof one night. I go walking there at night sometimes." Okay, that sounded dumb.
Heechul leaned in closer, examining me, dark brown eyes piercing into me. "Really? I see." Come on Kyuhyun, just hold it back. "You like the roof at night huh? The darkness, the icy cool breezes. It's all so peaceful, isn't it?" He said with a sly grin.
It's a trick. It has to be. I'm not giving up that easy. "Yeah, it's a good place to meditate."
He leaned back a little and said, "Yes, I suppose it is, but be careful. You wouldn't want to fall off. Not by mistake anyway." He said, practically giggling to himself. Had he actually cracked the code to my brain or what? Hell, maybe he was just guessing from what he knew. I didn't make it too hard. I've got to learn how they do that. Where was Hankyung anyway?
"You don't have to be so tense Hyunnie, I'm not here to hurt you. I don't bite." Sure.
He had the same confident aura around him that Hankyung had the first night I met him, but his was more cocky. Almost pompous. But for some reason his striking good looks and soft devilish red hair gave him the not so innocent look of a young bully, but he was cute, I'll give him that. With a decent personality, he'd almost be as cute as Hankyung is.
"So where are we?"
"This place? Oh this is an underground vampire club. They're all over the world."
"I never heard of them."
"Not many people do. This party rotates, from location to location all over the city, for one night only. That way they never get caught."
"So all these people are vampires?" I joked.
Heechul smiled wickedly at me and replied, "Hehe, they wish."
Then that statement was followed by a short silence. I had one more question to ask him, but even though I was curious I was too embarrassed to ask.
"Penny for your thoughts." Heechul said.
"Um, actually I did have something on my mind." I decided to just swallow it up and ask. I mean, I already knew the answer pretty much, but I wanted to know more. "I was just wondering...are you...like...gay?"
Heechul smiled at me and didn't answer me at all for at least a minute. He just sat there and stared directly into my eyes until I was forced to turn away. "You people and your labels."
"I was just wondering. I'm sorry. No offense."
"None taken." He replied. But then he went back to that uncomfortable silence again. He just stared me down and grinned at my uneasiness about the whole thing.
"So, like, are you? Gay, I mean?"
This time, Heechul's smile got wider and he leaned forward again. "I'm interested. If that's what you mean."
He was so close, his dark eyes dancing with the display of flashing lights around us, and even though he seemed like a jerk, something was just so damn sexy about him. I felt a strong lustful urge rise out of me, something like I've never experienced before. I knew that if I gave him a nod, he'd gladly take me out back and shower me with a sexual pleasure that would fulfil my every dream. It might only be that one time, but it would be guaranteed sex with a damn good looking guy. I searched for words, trying to say anything to break the mood, but of course, Heechul didn't back down one inch, in fact, he looked as though he was getting closer. Just then, Hankyung walked up.
"Having fun Heechul?" He said. Heechul looked up, but only gave him a lopsided grin.
"As a matter of fact, I was." He replied. "Are we ready to roll? This place is boring me already." And after the two of them exchanged a few looks, we gathered the others and headed back out .
We stopped to hang for a while on the bridge, watching the traffic pass frantically beneath us. The others made noise, whooped and hollered, and were basically acting our age. Hankyung and I of course, while still practically a part of the group, kept to ourselves. We were in our own little world, away from everything else. We didn't even notice the others until one of them laughed or screamed loud enough to be ignored. But we just talked quietly. And as he leaned over the rail to look at the city's skyline, his delicate face illuminated by the lights of every car that passed by, his silken bleached hair blowing in a soft wind, his lips moving to speak to me with the sweet song that was his voice, he became a god to me. His beauty was irresistible in a way that shook me to the very bottom of my soul. And without thinking at all I quickly leaned in and kissed him on the lips.
It was more than a quick peck, but a lot less than a real kiss. What did you expect? It was my first. I backed off right away, waiting for his reaction. He was speechless at first, his mouth hung open, and he struggled for words. I twitched a little and got so nervous that it almost made me sick to my stomach. But you couldn't imagine the joy in my heart when a huge excited smile crossed his face. He looked like a little kid who just got everything he ever wanted for Christmas. He basically jumped into my arms and hugged me tightly around the neck. I could only hug him back, sliding my arms around his slim waist.
“Oh wow. Kyuhyun, you have no idea how happy you make me. I love you.” He said softly into my ear while his chin rested on my shoulder.
I can't believe it! Was I even hearing him right? He loved me. The sweetest, most adorable, most incredible, cutest, smartest, wonderful guy in the whole world loved me. What are the odds?
I hugged his tender body warmly, feeling his sleek teenage frame shiver with excitement. As I looked ahead of me, I saw the others still playing around, making just as much noise as ever. Yesung was actually walking on top of the railing, the speeding traffic speeding by below us. A bit dangerous if you ask me, but he didn't seem worried at all. For the first time in my life, I said four words that I never thought I'd ever get the chance to say. And to think, they came from heart.
"I love you too." And I opened my eyes again as the other kids screamed, laughed and horsed around.
Then as if it was something you see in a nightmare, I saw Heechul look me right in the eye and purposely push Yesung off of the railing! Yesung cried out and fell off the bridge and onto the street below, a 5 or 6 meter drop at least! I froze, screamed in terror, and Hankyung jumped out of my arms to see what had happened. I quickly ran over to the edge to see if Yesung was alright. And before I even could register what was going on in my mind a loud horn cut through the night, and a truck slammed on the breaks, sliding to one side, but it was too late, and the truck hit Yesung, dragging him under the car like a rag doll. This can’t be happening… Oh my god this just can't be… he pushed him, he pushed him on purpose! I shouted and stared in amazement, only to shout some more. What did Yesung ever do to anybody? What the fuck was going on here? When I looked back at Heechul, he was actually laughing?!
"What the fuck are you laughing about? Do you know what you just did?" I said, racing over to grab Heechul by the collar of his shirt.
"Kyuhyun, don’t… please?” Hankyung said defeated.
Even Kibum was cracking up a little. Ryeowook seemed to be the only one with some common sense around here. Heechul only laughed harder as I shook him and slammed him up against the railing. "YOU ACTUALLY THINK THIS IS FUNNY?"
"So rookie, did you enjoy your first kiss? I'm sure it'll be a memorable one." He smiled. At that point, I could have killed him.
"Hey look, the cry baby’s blowing his cover again~" And I looked back at Hankyung, who's eyes were once again aglow with a bright golden light. I only caught a glimpse of it as he hurriedly forced his head downwards, his hair covering his eyes.
Kibum was laughing so hard at this point that he had tears in his eyes too, and they were just as bright as Hankyung's. Something here was definitely not right. Something was wrong, horribly wrong.
"I can't believe you did this Heechul, I can't believe you ruined this night for me. How could you be such an asshole?" Hankyung said, eyes on the ground. He sounded so defeated, like he had just been dumped by his date at the prom. The sound of his voice literally broke my heart.
Then, as if things weren't strange enough, I heard a voice shout up from below.
"You son of a bitch! What the hell did you do THAT for?" I looked down, and nearly fainted from what I saw. It was Yesung, battered, broken, covered in blood and walking around like it never happened! I stared down in amazement, unable to close my mouth as I saw Yesung practically take what should have been a fatal injury... and 'walk it off'…
"Asshole, I'm going to be limping for at least a week! Push Kibum over next time."
I couldn't speak, I couldn't move. I just stood there.
"No...no...he was...he was dead. I SAW it! I saw it with my own eyes. This, this isn't happening! No fucking way…" I shouted. The whole world seemed to spin around me, and I saw Yesung's eyes on the street below, glowing bright gold as well. I looked at Hankyung, at Heechul, at Kibum. All of them with the same luminous specs, staring right at me.
"Kyuhyun, please let me explain. I was going to tell you, I swear."
"Jesus… You're not human. None of you are!" I screamed.
"Well look at that. He's not as dumb as I thought he was." Kibum shouted out, still grinning as he saw Yesung limp up the stairs to join us again while Ryeowook hurriedly caught Yesung's arm to help him. Hankyung took a step closer to me, trying to ease my panic long enough to talk. But I jumped back. The thought of him touching me horrified me. It was like having a giant spider drop in your lap. That feeling of instant, uncontrollable repulsion. How could a guy I loved so much only minutes ago suddenly disgust me so?
"So Kyuhyun, still want to join the club?" Heechul teased, and when I turned to look at him he hissed at me, a pair of pearly white fangs dripping wet with saliva.
I ran passed Hankyung, heading for the steps as fast as I possibly could. I ran for my life, too afraid to look back, but as soon as I got a few steps from the bridge, I saw Hankyung standing in the shadows ahead of me.
"Kyuhyun, please, don't be mad at me, I didn't want you to find out this way." He said, but I never stopped running, I passed him up and kept going, running along the lake as fast as I possibly could, just praying that I could make it home. But when I looked he was running alongside me, effortlessly. He was keeping up without even breaking a sweat, and he began talking to me in a normal voice as though we were just taking a peaceful morning jog.
"Can't you just talk to me? I meant every word I said back there. I love you, and I just wanted you to see that." I tried to run faster, taking larger strides and pushing myself to the very limit. But there was no losing him, he was ten times faster than me. And at one point he even moved in front of me and started running backwards while talking to me.
"Just stop, just for a minute. Please? Don't shut me out Kyuhyun. Not like this."
It was pointless for me to continue. I was out of breath, my muscles ached, and my heart was beating so hard that it was about to explode. I slowed down to a trot, and finally stopped, doubling over and falling to me knees as I tried to slow my body's adrenaline rush enough to breathe again.
"You... you're a vampire? All of you?" I said, huffing and puffing so hard my chest hurt.
"...Yes." Hankyung answered, almost ashamed.
"Why? Why didn't you tell me?"
"Oh sure. 'Hey Kyuhyun, my name's Hankyung, and by the way, did I mention that I'm a vampire'?"
It took almost ten minutes for me to even look at him. But he waited patiently for me to catch my breath and then he helped me to my feet. I looked back into the distance to see the others laughing and giggling on the bridge. Shouting out.
"Is the poor baby scared? Haha!" and "Did he wet his pants?" And Kibum, forever the 'lovable' one said, "Hey Kyuhyun! Why don't you come back and we can push YOU off this time?"
Their laughter reminded me of just how dark life was. Once again, I had struck out. My last chance, my only hope at being happy, was gone. My fantasy world had been shattered once again, and not even suicide seemed to be punishment enough for me. At this point, I had no soul left at all.
"Forget those guys. Look, I know this isn't what you were expecting, okay? But, you wanted help, and I can give it to you. Kyuhyun, you can go back to your life, or you can go back to the building, but I'm giving you another choice here. I had my doubts, I did. After living this way for so long, I thought I would never want to inflict this kind of situation on anybody. And I know it's wrong, and I know it's selfish, but eternity can be so lonely Kyuhyun. When I saw you, when I was watching you for all those months walking up and down that roof, ready to jump off and end your life, I thought that maybe I could do this one thing for you. It hurt me to see you in pain and I fell so deeply in love with you on those nights that I figured if I could just somehow help you choose life that I'd be able to see you again. But this way I could have you with me, forever. Just like you said."
I weighed the options presented me. Do I go back to a life that doesn't want me? An alcoholic mother, a dying friend, a horde of guys waiting to beat me and hurt me, an abusive father who doesn't even call to see if I'm still alive, and a sexual orientation that pretty much guarantees I'll never find a love this strong ever again? Do I go back to the building? End it all? That it finally broke me down like it had been trying to do for so very long? Or do I give this some thought? I had nowhere else to turn. And then, without further hesitation, I kissed Hankyung on the lips and accepted.
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Heechul is such an ass! Kibum isn't any better though.. Ryeowook is just adorable ^.^ They'll be nice after a while though~ I promise! It's sometimes so hard to write Kyuhyun's thoughts, but I think it turned our 'okay', what do you guys think?
LET ME KNOW ^.~ ♥
Author: tellykins
Pairings: Various, I can't really reveal that yet.
Rating: R, Higher rated chapters will be marked as NC-17
Disclaimer: Story based on GFD spin off. I seriously loved that! But, I do don't own Super Junior.
Genre: A lot. I'll be sure to put warnings for extreme things. AU! Vampires.
Summary: Kyuhyun never was that tempted before. It has been said that suffering builds character, but this time he doesn't want anything else then putting an end to his miseries. That is, until he meets an mysterious hot guy who gives him an alternative. One that would give him purpose and bring him to his ultimate destiny. But does he make the right choice?
Chapter: Chapter 4
Previous Chapters: (Masterlist)
A/N: Do it, do it Chu~ Aw' Kyu, it's hard to be accepted so soon. Even though I'd like to say 'Poor Yesung' the way I imagined it, was funny / xD *bricked*
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Chapter 4
Hankyung would take my hand every now and then and slow down a bit. We would naturally fall behind a little, and he would never say much, but he would look at me and smile. There was a weird tension between us, and every time we shared a little too much of it, we would stop holding hands and catch up. Only to do it again a few minutes later.
Joining us that night was Heechul, his apparent ‘boyfriend’ Shiwon, Ryeowook, Yesung, and Kibum. We all made a little noise, and a few times I even laughed along with them as they teased each other and pranced back and forth along the sidewalk, occasionally jumping up to grab a tree branch, or swinging themselves around a light pole. It was a curiously good feeling. I know it sounds sad, but I never had friends like this before. I never had friends at all.
We went down a dark alley and they knocked on a rusty iron door in the back. I was a bit confused as to what was going on, but soon the door opened, and the alley was flooded with the heavy bass of loud techno music. A large bulky man came to the door and looked us up and down.
"Aw geez! Why don't you damn teens just stay away? I'm trying to run a business here, you guys are going to get me in a lot of trouble."
Ryeowook walked up to him and said "Look, Hankyung hyung here, just needs to talk to Onew for a few seconds, and then we're out of here. Please? Just for a few seconds?"
He was so sweet, everything about him was beautiful. He used his hand to gently tuck his shiny brown locks behind his ear, and gave the man a sad puppy look that could melt even the cruellest man's heart.
The man sighed. "If I lose my license I'm personally going to flatten the whole bunch of you, now hurry up! A few seconds, no more. Got it?" The man said, obviously defeated, but trying to keep up the tough guy routine anyway.
"Thanks man, you're a life saver." Hankyung said excitedly. And he stepped aside to let us all walk in through the door. We all walked single file down a long corridor as the beat of the music got louder, and soon we opened another door that led us into the middle of a huge dance party. There were flashing lights and lasers everywhere, the music was loud enough to make my stomach pound in time with the beat, and everyone was wearing black. We somehow made our way through the hundred or so bodies on the dance floor, being knocked about from all sides, and finally found a table somewhere on the wall. Hankyung looked down at me.
"I'll be right back, okay? Don't go anywhere." Then he smiled sheepishly and he backed away from the table. He disappeared into the crowd. I was totally, hopelessly, and completely in love with him. I'd let it consume me from head to toe and…
"Ahem.” Came Heechul’s voice from across the table. I was jarred back into reality, and looked over to see the rest of them staring at me.
"Sorry, I just lost my train of thought there for a second!" I shouted over the music. It was pounding so hard I knew that this would be a difficult conversation indeed.
The second I said it, everyone cringed. "Why the hell are you yelling? Jesus, just talk like a normal person before you deafen us all." Kibum scowled.
"Wha-what?"
"Much better." How could he hear me over this music? I couldn't even hear myself. I'd ask, but at this point I knew the questions would only succeed in making me look stupid.
Heechul eyed me for a second, as though he were sizing me up, and he liked what he saw. Hey, I'm not that bad looking either. "Say Shiwon, why don't you and the rest go score us some drinks from Gyuri at the bar?" He said.
"We're not supposed to drink. We could get Crown J in trouble if we get caught." Ryeowook stuttered quietly. But Heechul just flashed him a serious look that basically gave him the impression that he should keep his mouth shut. Kibum and Yesung looked at each other and were ready to get up.
"Are you sure? I mean, maybe they can bring some back for the both of us." Shiwon replied. But Heechul ran his finger along the guy's smooth cheek and told him to go. Shiwon looked over at me, and then back to Heechul before reluctantly getting out of his seat. All four of them walked away from the table, Ryeowook giving me a slightly worried look before Heechul shooed him away. And there we were. Alone.
"So Kyuhyun, exactly how did you meet our Hannie here?" He asked, smiling at me.
Hide it Kyuhyun, hide it! He can't possibly read everything. He doesn't need to know about the suicide thing, just relax, and hide your thoughts. You can do it.
"Actually I met him on some roof one night. I go walking there at night sometimes." Okay, that sounded dumb.
Heechul leaned in closer, examining me, dark brown eyes piercing into me. "Really? I see." Come on Kyuhyun, just hold it back. "You like the roof at night huh? The darkness, the icy cool breezes. It's all so peaceful, isn't it?" He said with a sly grin.
It's a trick. It has to be. I'm not giving up that easy. "Yeah, it's a good place to meditate."
He leaned back a little and said, "Yes, I suppose it is, but be careful. You wouldn't want to fall off. Not by mistake anyway." He said, practically giggling to himself. Had he actually cracked the code to my brain or what? Hell, maybe he was just guessing from what he knew. I didn't make it too hard. I've got to learn how they do that. Where was Hankyung anyway?
"You don't have to be so tense Hyunnie, I'm not here to hurt you. I don't bite." Sure.
He had the same confident aura around him that Hankyung had the first night I met him, but his was more cocky. Almost pompous. But for some reason his striking good looks and soft devilish red hair gave him the not so innocent look of a young bully, but he was cute, I'll give him that. With a decent personality, he'd almost be as cute as Hankyung is.
"So where are we?"
"This place? Oh this is an underground vampire club. They're all over the world."
"I never heard of them."
"Not many people do. This party rotates, from location to location all over the city, for one night only. That way they never get caught."
"So all these people are vampires?" I joked.
Heechul smiled wickedly at me and replied, "Hehe, they wish."
Then that statement was followed by a short silence. I had one more question to ask him, but even though I was curious I was too embarrassed to ask.
"Penny for your thoughts." Heechul said.
"Um, actually I did have something on my mind." I decided to just swallow it up and ask. I mean, I already knew the answer pretty much, but I wanted to know more. "I was just wondering...are you...like...gay?"
Heechul smiled at me and didn't answer me at all for at least a minute. He just sat there and stared directly into my eyes until I was forced to turn away. "You people and your labels."
"I was just wondering. I'm sorry. No offense."
"None taken." He replied. But then he went back to that uncomfortable silence again. He just stared me down and grinned at my uneasiness about the whole thing.
"So, like, are you? Gay, I mean?"
This time, Heechul's smile got wider and he leaned forward again. "I'm interested. If that's what you mean."
He was so close, his dark eyes dancing with the display of flashing lights around us, and even though he seemed like a jerk, something was just so damn sexy about him. I felt a strong lustful urge rise out of me, something like I've never experienced before. I knew that if I gave him a nod, he'd gladly take me out back and shower me with a sexual pleasure that would fulfil my every dream. It might only be that one time, but it would be guaranteed sex with a damn good looking guy. I searched for words, trying to say anything to break the mood, but of course, Heechul didn't back down one inch, in fact, he looked as though he was getting closer. Just then, Hankyung walked up.
"Having fun Heechul?" He said. Heechul looked up, but only gave him a lopsided grin.
"As a matter of fact, I was." He replied. "Are we ready to roll? This place is boring me already." And after the two of them exchanged a few looks, we gathered the others and headed back out .
We stopped to hang for a while on the bridge, watching the traffic pass frantically beneath us. The others made noise, whooped and hollered, and were basically acting our age. Hankyung and I of course, while still practically a part of the group, kept to ourselves. We were in our own little world, away from everything else. We didn't even notice the others until one of them laughed or screamed loud enough to be ignored. But we just talked quietly. And as he leaned over the rail to look at the city's skyline, his delicate face illuminated by the lights of every car that passed by, his silken bleached hair blowing in a soft wind, his lips moving to speak to me with the sweet song that was his voice, he became a god to me. His beauty was irresistible in a way that shook me to the very bottom of my soul. And without thinking at all I quickly leaned in and kissed him on the lips.
It was more than a quick peck, but a lot less than a real kiss. What did you expect? It was my first. I backed off right away, waiting for his reaction. He was speechless at first, his mouth hung open, and he struggled for words. I twitched a little and got so nervous that it almost made me sick to my stomach. But you couldn't imagine the joy in my heart when a huge excited smile crossed his face. He looked like a little kid who just got everything he ever wanted for Christmas. He basically jumped into my arms and hugged me tightly around the neck. I could only hug him back, sliding my arms around his slim waist.
“Oh wow. Kyuhyun, you have no idea how happy you make me. I love you.” He said softly into my ear while his chin rested on my shoulder.
I can't believe it! Was I even hearing him right? He loved me. The sweetest, most adorable, most incredible, cutest, smartest, wonderful guy in the whole world loved me. What are the odds?
I hugged his tender body warmly, feeling his sleek teenage frame shiver with excitement. As I looked ahead of me, I saw the others still playing around, making just as much noise as ever. Yesung was actually walking on top of the railing, the speeding traffic speeding by below us. A bit dangerous if you ask me, but he didn't seem worried at all. For the first time in my life, I said four words that I never thought I'd ever get the chance to say. And to think, they came from heart.
"I love you too." And I opened my eyes again as the other kids screamed, laughed and horsed around.
Then as if it was something you see in a nightmare, I saw Heechul look me right in the eye and purposely push Yesung off of the railing! Yesung cried out and fell off the bridge and onto the street below, a 5 or 6 meter drop at least! I froze, screamed in terror, and Hankyung jumped out of my arms to see what had happened. I quickly ran over to the edge to see if Yesung was alright. And before I even could register what was going on in my mind a loud horn cut through the night, and a truck slammed on the breaks, sliding to one side, but it was too late, and the truck hit Yesung, dragging him under the car like a rag doll. This can’t be happening… Oh my god this just can't be… he pushed him, he pushed him on purpose! I shouted and stared in amazement, only to shout some more. What did Yesung ever do to anybody? What the fuck was going on here? When I looked back at Heechul, he was actually laughing?!
"What the fuck are you laughing about? Do you know what you just did?" I said, racing over to grab Heechul by the collar of his shirt.
"Kyuhyun, don’t… please?” Hankyung said defeated.
Even Kibum was cracking up a little. Ryeowook seemed to be the only one with some common sense around here. Heechul only laughed harder as I shook him and slammed him up against the railing. "YOU ACTUALLY THINK THIS IS FUNNY?"
"So rookie, did you enjoy your first kiss? I'm sure it'll be a memorable one." He smiled. At that point, I could have killed him.
"Hey look, the cry baby’s blowing his cover again~" And I looked back at Hankyung, who's eyes were once again aglow with a bright golden light. I only caught a glimpse of it as he hurriedly forced his head downwards, his hair covering his eyes.
Kibum was laughing so hard at this point that he had tears in his eyes too, and they were just as bright as Hankyung's. Something here was definitely not right. Something was wrong, horribly wrong.
"I can't believe you did this Heechul, I can't believe you ruined this night for me. How could you be such an asshole?" Hankyung said, eyes on the ground. He sounded so defeated, like he had just been dumped by his date at the prom. The sound of his voice literally broke my heart.
Then, as if things weren't strange enough, I heard a voice shout up from below.
"You son of a bitch! What the hell did you do THAT for?" I looked down, and nearly fainted from what I saw. It was Yesung, battered, broken, covered in blood and walking around like it never happened! I stared down in amazement, unable to close my mouth as I saw Yesung practically take what should have been a fatal injury... and 'walk it off'…
"Asshole, I'm going to be limping for at least a week! Push Kibum over next time."
I couldn't speak, I couldn't move. I just stood there.
"No...no...he was...he was dead. I SAW it! I saw it with my own eyes. This, this isn't happening! No fucking way…" I shouted. The whole world seemed to spin around me, and I saw Yesung's eyes on the street below, glowing bright gold as well. I looked at Hankyung, at Heechul, at Kibum. All of them with the same luminous specs, staring right at me.
"Kyuhyun, please let me explain. I was going to tell you, I swear."
"Jesus… You're not human. None of you are!" I screamed.
"Well look at that. He's not as dumb as I thought he was." Kibum shouted out, still grinning as he saw Yesung limp up the stairs to join us again while Ryeowook hurriedly caught Yesung's arm to help him. Hankyung took a step closer to me, trying to ease my panic long enough to talk. But I jumped back. The thought of him touching me horrified me. It was like having a giant spider drop in your lap. That feeling of instant, uncontrollable repulsion. How could a guy I loved so much only minutes ago suddenly disgust me so?
"So Kyuhyun, still want to join the club?" Heechul teased, and when I turned to look at him he hissed at me, a pair of pearly white fangs dripping wet with saliva.
I ran passed Hankyung, heading for the steps as fast as I possibly could. I ran for my life, too afraid to look back, but as soon as I got a few steps from the bridge, I saw Hankyung standing in the shadows ahead of me.
"Kyuhyun, please, don't be mad at me, I didn't want you to find out this way." He said, but I never stopped running, I passed him up and kept going, running along the lake as fast as I possibly could, just praying that I could make it home. But when I looked he was running alongside me, effortlessly. He was keeping up without even breaking a sweat, and he began talking to me in a normal voice as though we were just taking a peaceful morning jog.
"Can't you just talk to me? I meant every word I said back there. I love you, and I just wanted you to see that." I tried to run faster, taking larger strides and pushing myself to the very limit. But there was no losing him, he was ten times faster than me. And at one point he even moved in front of me and started running backwards while talking to me.
"Just stop, just for a minute. Please? Don't shut me out Kyuhyun. Not like this."
It was pointless for me to continue. I was out of breath, my muscles ached, and my heart was beating so hard that it was about to explode. I slowed down to a trot, and finally stopped, doubling over and falling to me knees as I tried to slow my body's adrenaline rush enough to breathe again.
"You... you're a vampire? All of you?" I said, huffing and puffing so hard my chest hurt.
"...Yes." Hankyung answered, almost ashamed.
"Why? Why didn't you tell me?"
"Oh sure. 'Hey Kyuhyun, my name's Hankyung, and by the way, did I mention that I'm a vampire'?"
It took almost ten minutes for me to even look at him. But he waited patiently for me to catch my breath and then he helped me to my feet. I looked back into the distance to see the others laughing and giggling on the bridge. Shouting out.
"Is the poor baby scared? Haha!" and "Did he wet his pants?" And Kibum, forever the 'lovable' one said, "Hey Kyuhyun! Why don't you come back and we can push YOU off this time?"
Their laughter reminded me of just how dark life was. Once again, I had struck out. My last chance, my only hope at being happy, was gone. My fantasy world had been shattered once again, and not even suicide seemed to be punishment enough for me. At this point, I had no soul left at all.
"Forget those guys. Look, I know this isn't what you were expecting, okay? But, you wanted help, and I can give it to you. Kyuhyun, you can go back to your life, or you can go back to the building, but I'm giving you another choice here. I had my doubts, I did. After living this way for so long, I thought I would never want to inflict this kind of situation on anybody. And I know it's wrong, and I know it's selfish, but eternity can be so lonely Kyuhyun. When I saw you, when I was watching you for all those months walking up and down that roof, ready to jump off and end your life, I thought that maybe I could do this one thing for you. It hurt me to see you in pain and I fell so deeply in love with you on those nights that I figured if I could just somehow help you choose life that I'd be able to see you again. But this way I could have you with me, forever. Just like you said."
I weighed the options presented me. Do I go back to a life that doesn't want me? An alcoholic mother, a dying friend, a horde of guys waiting to beat me and hurt me, an abusive father who doesn't even call to see if I'm still alive, and a sexual orientation that pretty much guarantees I'll never find a love this strong ever again? Do I go back to the building? End it all? That it finally broke me down like it had been trying to do for so very long? Or do I give this some thought? I had nowhere else to turn. And then, without further hesitation, I kissed Hankyung on the lips and accepted.
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Heechul is such an ass! Kibum isn't any better though.. Ryeowook is just adorable ^.^ They'll be nice after a while though~ I promise! It's sometimes so hard to write Kyuhyun's thoughts, but I think it turned our 'okay', what do you guys think?
LET ME KNOW ^.~ ♥